I feel kinda bad
So I told Mike tonight about how I still am lingering on my ex, more than that, I've slept with him 3 times since Monday. Besides the fact he was drunk, I shouldn't have said it so straight-forward as I did. How was I to know how much I just hurt him?
He sent me a text while we were in the common room and I was knitting, and asked again that he thinks we should date because he saw us as being really good together. I didn't reply, I just went outside with him and told him how it was. He didn't take it too well. Even thought I already had told him 5 days ago how I didn't want a relationship because of Tim. He took that ok. Maybe it was the booze affecting him more. I honestly didn't know he would be so hurt. He told me that I was saying the exact same thing to him as I did to Ben Brandt. I admitted it, because it was true. I had hurt another boy.
He said he really did think we would be good together, and he said he could never see himself getting mad at me(?). He kept talking about how Tim would dump me again, and it would never end well, but who is he to say that? He doesn't know him, I mean I hardly know Mike, we've just seen each other for maybe a little over a week now. I'm not going to listen to what he says about Tim, he's a sloppy drunk who can't understand the situation.
There is no way I could go into another relationship knowing how I felt. I want to feel completely into one person, and I do, but I'm not sure how he feels. There will always other people who I sort of feel attracted to, but I stay true to who I want most.
He sent me a text while we were in the common room and I was knitting, and asked again that he thinks we should date because he saw us as being really good together. I didn't reply, I just went outside with him and told him how it was. He didn't take it too well. Even thought I already had told him 5 days ago how I didn't want a relationship because of Tim. He took that ok. Maybe it was the booze affecting him more. I honestly didn't know he would be so hurt. He told me that I was saying the exact same thing to him as I did to Ben Brandt. I admitted it, because it was true. I had hurt another boy.
He said he really did think we would be good together, and he said he could never see himself getting mad at me(?). He kept talking about how Tim would dump me again, and it would never end well, but who is he to say that? He doesn't know him, I mean I hardly know Mike, we've just seen each other for maybe a little over a week now. I'm not going to listen to what he says about Tim, he's a sloppy drunk who can't understand the situation.
There is no way I could go into another relationship knowing how I felt. I want to feel completely into one person, and I do, but I'm not sure how he feels. There will always other people who I sort of feel attracted to, but I stay true to who I want most.