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i don't why i think things will happen or make believe what i have been waiting for has finally come. i probably make no sense and you are thinking wtf is he talking about. it seems like he is mumbling about nothing. I feel like i have been nothing grateful to anyone. like when i try to do my best i fail and sometimes i feel like i don't help others but others help them. Idk why i bother helping people out when others do a much better job and deserved to be thanked for doing that. i think i need to go away somewhere. i hate being in my house and thats where i am usually. you just gotta love arguments, parents controlling your life and your every move. i am 19 and not even on my bday i coulnd't go out with my friends and play some poker. sometimes i feekl like walking around my house and going to my parents room and be like goodbye i;ve had it as i hold a gun in my hand and aim for my head and just shoot myself and have them witness my death.