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Why is it the fucked up girls follow me around. I can't seemed to avoid them. From gradeschool on its been fucked up girls everywhere. I wonder if its me they are attracted (or unattracted too, these girls sometimes like to torment what they hate because they're all sadistic in a way) or me to them. Eitherway its real fucked up. More you share with someone they more they can use to stab you in the back later to make you look even worse.
That's why this is it for my LJ. I guess some things are just ment to be kept to yourself. People are fucked up and need help in general. No sense writing about it in this thing. There are better things to do with my time then whine about it on here. As soon as I go back to BG I'll find something to do with the time I've wasted on this thing.
I can't even beleve I use one of these things. Who am I to think what I do is important enough to be written down and read about. No body anything does is worth talking about anymore. Especally me.
Besides I don't have that much time to put into caring about keeping stuff like this. LJ is not very relaxing. It lets me vent, yes. But so often with the written word so much can be read between the lines. Unless something is spoken it can be taken out of context and be made to say whatever the person reading it would think it means.
This is why I shoulden't use that much chat. Only the people who know me best can know the way I think and not guess at in what way I would say something. Even then something can still be misunderstood. So with all this room for an error of meaning. Hence stuff like this only lead to more drama, either by saying something that you don't mean or misunderstanding someone else said or did for that matter. Who knows with the meaning that I type these words, I am the only one who knows of the thought and action behind them.
Then again maybe that's why most of the people who really love these things to death anyways either don't mind saying too much or never say enough to be much of a person anyways. I like to think my friends sometimes are too smart not to shut up. For them it must be great not to care. I kind like keeping a bit to myself because the past can only hold you back. I guess people are ok afterall, they just have to learn when sometimes its nice to just stay quiet. For me now that's best, but when its worth talking about again I'll let someone know.
That's why this is it for my LJ. I guess some things are just ment to be kept to yourself. People are fucked up and need help in general. No sense writing about it in this thing. There are better things to do with my time then whine about it on here. As soon as I go back to BG I'll find something to do with the time I've wasted on this thing.
I can't even beleve I use one of these things. Who am I to think what I do is important enough to be written down and read about. No body anything does is worth talking about anymore. Especally me.
Besides I don't have that much time to put into caring about keeping stuff like this. LJ is not very relaxing. It lets me vent, yes. But so often with the written word so much can be read between the lines. Unless something is spoken it can be taken out of context and be made to say whatever the person reading it would think it means.
This is why I shoulden't use that much chat. Only the people who know me best can know the way I think and not guess at in what way I would say something. Even then something can still be misunderstood. So with all this room for an error of meaning. Hence stuff like this only lead to more drama, either by saying something that you don't mean or misunderstanding someone else said or did for that matter. Who knows with the meaning that I type these words, I am the only one who knows of the thought and action behind them.
Then again maybe that's why most of the people who really love these things to death anyways either don't mind saying too much or never say enough to be much of a person anyways. I like to think my friends sometimes are too smart not to shut up. For them it must be great not to care. I kind like keeping a bit to myself because the past can only hold you back. I guess people are ok afterall, they just have to learn when sometimes its nice to just stay quiet. For me now that's best, but when its worth talking about again I'll let someone know.