I wish I could live my life like how I "drunk dance"
I need to get my self out of this box, gosh its heinous. I sleep, work, walk, catch trains, eat yucky food and chat on the phone. That really isn't real life, well it may be for some but I cant take it. I need some free time so I can get some perspective. I just think about the same things and suddenly I'm swept away. It was good when everything was lazy and I was doing things because I wanted to, instead of searching for a meaning. I'm not into meaning production but that implies something fixed and permanent which I know cannot be the case. i just have to get Wimbledon over so I can get over this and see people, live according to my impulses.
I am going on holiday in a week, which I forgot about and left me scurrying around looking for a bikini and skirts and what not. It was born in a totally random why and I am going with Naomi and her mate. At first, I really didnt like Naomi but I think I like her now, I do wonder what exactly shall be talked about as we are spending a week together, I guess it will be about boys, of the Italian variety. I've never been on holiday with any of my best frends which is odd but I find holidays generally hard. I dont really want to go alone but I want only to do what I want, ha! Cant wait to see a swiss guard, still remains one of my main objectives in life to bag one. Also it'll be good to see Felix, hehe. I dont like long distance, after Marc and spain it's something I could never do. Now until the end of the year is a LONG time and things might change but at the moment they are not changing by lessening how I feel. I can see now there will be issues and I wish I had some kind of advice coming from somewhere. But I guess the only important thing is that I want to spend time with him and be with him so that's it at the moment. I dont thnk it's good to think about the future because frankly I could die and anyway I dont like plans because they dont work out. If you plan you pretty much are accepting the fact that the reality will go in the opposite direction. And I dont want pressure, blah this is complicated and I dont want to thinka bout it at all.
Distraction, over here, please?
It's so bloody hot in my house, sleeping is uncomfortable but it's all I want to do because of my hours. Wimby is good though, met a cool gal with an ace name which is my talent. Seen loads of tennis players and matches, which is why I got the job. Meeting people you see on the Tv is always a dissapointment though as they never meet my heady expectations.
Oh my frends munch munch are playing White heat Tuesday night, come it'll be fun and they're good if that doesn't take your fancy, I'll be there too which should tickle you pink!
Bisses
I am going on holiday in a week, which I forgot about and left me scurrying around looking for a bikini and skirts and what not. It was born in a totally random why and I am going with Naomi and her mate. At first, I really didnt like Naomi but I think I like her now, I do wonder what exactly shall be talked about as we are spending a week together, I guess it will be about boys, of the Italian variety. I've never been on holiday with any of my best frends which is odd but I find holidays generally hard. I dont really want to go alone but I want only to do what I want, ha! Cant wait to see a swiss guard, still remains one of my main objectives in life to bag one. Also it'll be good to see Felix, hehe. I dont like long distance, after Marc and spain it's something I could never do. Now until the end of the year is a LONG time and things might change but at the moment they are not changing by lessening how I feel. I can see now there will be issues and I wish I had some kind of advice coming from somewhere. But I guess the only important thing is that I want to spend time with him and be with him so that's it at the moment. I dont thnk it's good to think about the future because frankly I could die and anyway I dont like plans because they dont work out. If you plan you pretty much are accepting the fact that the reality will go in the opposite direction. And I dont want pressure, blah this is complicated and I dont want to thinka bout it at all.
Distraction, over here, please?
It's so bloody hot in my house, sleeping is uncomfortable but it's all I want to do because of my hours. Wimby is good though, met a cool gal with an ace name which is my talent. Seen loads of tennis players and matches, which is why I got the job. Meeting people you see on the Tv is always a dissapointment though as they never meet my heady expectations.
Oh my frends munch munch are playing White heat Tuesday night, come it'll be fun and they're good if that doesn't take your fancy, I'll be there too which should tickle you pink!
Bisses