All the couples have gone
We had an argument, he touched my face and i ran away. He is a man now, not that 16 year old boy that poured affection onto me so much that i choked, made me feel so very worthwhile and thought he loved me. Unfortunately a large part of me is still that 15 year old that would do anything to make him (anyone) love me. It is all over now. I knew Marc was walking towards me, I saw him wave and wished that it was a mistake, that it wasnt him becauseI didnt recognise him:now he is a man and I am still a girl. We do not meet in the middle, we do not understand each other, language is suddenly a problem, we dont know each other anymore, we dont like each other anymore.
This is not nice, I am sad because I am nostaglic and I wish things wouldn't ever change. But mostly I am jealous beacause he had the courage that I dont have, he was honest with himself and I cant be. But most importantly he knows who he is and what he wants, two things I am nowhere near grasping.
All I can do is read 'The Fall', 'Notes from the underground', listen to Regina Spektor and forget about him.
This is not nice, I am sad because I am nostaglic and I wish things wouldn't ever change. But mostly I am jealous beacause he had the courage that I dont have, he was honest with himself and I cant be. But most importantly he knows who he is and what he wants, two things I am nowhere near grasping.
All I can do is read 'The Fall', 'Notes from the underground', listen to Regina Spektor and forget about him.