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Uh... slight change in my plans...
To add on top of all this, I am not singing Amazing Grace.
Instead I get to sing I Believe by Diamond Rio...
And I Believe There Are Angels by Alabama.
I am so friggin nervous... I have never done something like this.
I am kinda being forced, yet I want to do it... its a pity thing.
My mom is telling me that Lorie is bent on having me sing at it...
She really wants to hear me sing... I guess cause she never knew I sang,
and she wants to hear it..................
So I don't want to say no and disapoint her.
But I am just so friggin nervous that I have to learn these two songs...
I Believe should be easy, but I haven't heard of the other one.
This brings back horrid memories of when my grandfather died...
I held his hand and said taps to him when everyone was out of the room...
because he had been in the army, and I am a scout.
I always think back to that day. And of course to the last day I saw him alive.
We where in his house, and my dad and I where in his room.
He was in bed becuase he couldn't stand or walk well...
I talked to him, and made him laugh...
for the first time in my life I had made him laugh...
Then before I left, I told him to get better.
He said Don't worry I'll get better.
I believed him...
and now he is not here.
I don't know why I believed him... but I did.
...And now, he is missing everything.
My graduation, and me getting my Eagle.
I know he would be proud, but I want to see him...
and I want to hear him tell me that.
But I didn't and I won't ever.
I hate death and I am pretty sure everyone else does.
There is just to much going on for me right now...
C-ya later...
To add on top of all this, I am not singing Amazing Grace.
Instead I get to sing I Believe by Diamond Rio...
And I Believe There Are Angels by Alabama.
I am so friggin nervous... I have never done something like this.
I am kinda being forced, yet I want to do it... its a pity thing.
My mom is telling me that Lorie is bent on having me sing at it...
She really wants to hear me sing... I guess cause she never knew I sang,
and she wants to hear it..................
So I don't want to say no and disapoint her.
But I am just so friggin nervous that I have to learn these two songs...
I Believe should be easy, but I haven't heard of the other one.
This brings back horrid memories of when my grandfather died...
I held his hand and said taps to him when everyone was out of the room...
because he had been in the army, and I am a scout.
I always think back to that day. And of course to the last day I saw him alive.
We where in his house, and my dad and I where in his room.
He was in bed becuase he couldn't stand or walk well...
I talked to him, and made him laugh...
for the first time in my life I had made him laugh...
Then before I left, I told him to get better.
He said Don't worry I'll get better.
I believed him...
and now he is not here.
I don't know why I believed him... but I did.
...And now, he is missing everything.
My graduation, and me getting my Eagle.
I know he would be proud, but I want to see him...
and I want to hear him tell me that.
But I didn't and I won't ever.
I hate death and I am pretty sure everyone else does.
There is just to much going on for me right now...
C-ya later...