Hahah damn im insane in the membrane...

[peto_pete]

I swear everytime this happens iwth me and karla... every time... i trip the fuck out seriously... lmao... its sorta embarrasing... but yea... I see black honda civics all over the fucking road now... i mean shit... everyone has the same damn car it drives me insane... when i saw one pull up next to me at a red light and the girl was looking at me i could see in my perriferals my stomach seriously just about got itself in a damned knot! but then i looked and it was only Carina from my 3rd period.. i wasted a happy smile on her... bitch. hahah jk.. i swear it though that i hear her car and i look out the window and its nothing... or i see headlights or think i see shadows outside and i look again and hahah with no surprise there is nothing either or a car turning and not her car either... through little quiet spots of my music i swear it that i hear her talking so i look outside the window and to my misfortune its just some people down the street or the neibors... You know what im gonna stop now! i sound like a fucking obsessed freak... which i WOULDNT like to be known as... but jesus i sure as fuck am going loco in mi la cabeza!!! but on another hand... i never see her at school anymore... that is good i suppose... if we are to see eahother id rather it be like at a house not school ya know? well yea... this whole thing is so different... i feel so fucking strange... like i guess for the first time in my life i can say it and really mean it... i am lost hahah. I dont know really what to do and all that good jazz she put me up to. but maybe also ontop of that i can say this is the most depressed i have ever really been... yet at the same time it's somethign different. I dont get hungry really and i dont want to sleep at all... i dunno.,. and i know that sounds like the effects of meth but even without it like last night... and i guess today too for that matter... i feel so much regret, sadness, lost, and just all in all empty. I did have it coming my way and i did deserve it. And like last night's entry... im glad for her decission cuz she can do oh so very much better than a guy like me. I swear i cant get her off my head though... and i just want to see her once more for a night of just her and i hanging out. I know it wouldnt do any good for either me or her... and i wouldnt expect to get back together afterwords just cuz of it... i mean i would like to but im not gonna expect it you know? *sigh* i just wanna cuddle up and watch random TV like disney channel and spanish music videos and nickelodian and even at times cartoon network... among tons of movies... i dont know... just lay close to her and share the same blanket and same body heat and same heart rhythm.... lightly kiss her neck and hold her close never wanting to let go (too late for that but yea..).. shit... i just want one last hang out to hear her sweet voice and stare at her when she's not looking to admire her beauty.... *sigh*... wlel whatever... im gonna go now... i'll write some more some other time...

The Ronettes - "Be My Baby"

The night we met I knew I needed you so
And if I had the chance I'd never let you go
So won't you say you love me
I'll make you so proud of me
We'll make 'em turn their heads
Every place we go
So won't you please

(Be my be my baby) Be my little baby
(I want it only say) Say you'll be my darling
(Be my be my baby) Be my baby now
(I want it only say) Ooh, ohh, ohh, oh

I'll make you happy, baby
Just wait and see
For every kiss you give me
I'll give you three
Oh, since the day I saw you
I have been waiting for you
You know I will adore you
Till eternity
So won't you please

(Be my be my baby) Be my little baby
(I want it only say) Say you'll be my darling
(Be my be my baby) Be my baby now
(I want it only say) Ooh, ohh, ohh, ohh, oh

[INSTRUMENTAL]

So come on and please
(Be my be my baby) Be my little baby
(I want it only say) Say you'll be my darling
(Be my be my baby) Be my baby now
(I want it only say) Ooh, ohh, ohh, oh

(Be my be my baby) Be my little baby
(I want it only say) Ooh-oh-oh-oh, ooh-oh-oh-oh
(Be my be my baby) Oh-oh-oh, oohh...
(I want it only say) Oh, oh, oh, oh, oooohh...