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okay, first off: please, please please PLEASE vote for John Kerry. if you are thinking of not voting or (god forbid) voting for Bush, please talk to me first...post here or call me or SOMETHING, and we will discuss.
i feel really hurt that that skank ass beotch...i mean, racheal, doesnt like ben and i. i mean, we loved her from the start and she doesnt want to hang with us? that is harsh. we would NEVER say (or think for that matter) anything like that. ooookay, sweetie pie, we HATE you. thats how it is. thats why we pulled u aside and asked you to spend more time with us. and talking about being fat is getting old. how is that nice to everyone who is bigger than her, but isnt fat? it makes them feel like shit. (as i am writing this, audie is nodding. lol) aargh!!!!!!
wow, that sounded harsh...it honestly wasnt meant to be. i love everyone here so much, and i am really sad that racheal doesnt count me among her friends. i've always believed that Rent mantra of "forget regret, or life is yours to miss" but since i have been here, i have had so many regrets. namely that i havent gotten closer to some of the girls here. i mean, i am getting closer to audie, and she is fucking amazing. after that heart-to-heart talk ben, audie, jared and i had, i feel much closer to them. (and hey, it was informational: jared and i found out that we are in love. lol) but obviously rach has no intention of getting to know me, and thats sad. whats worse, when i was drunk i was a total skank to poor jenny, who i FINALLY was starting to get close to. (no one ever said that i had good timing) i want to apoligize to jenny, and explain that most of what i was saying was directed at Adrienne and Alex (also known as the stick figures with no souls) and had nothing to do with her. but i dont want to risk hurting her more by bringing it up. so basically, its just sort of awkward between us, which sucks, because, despite being a republican, shes actually pretty cool. sooo...yeah. i have regrets right now.
I know you think no one knows you, but you don't know
You think you've got nowhere to go, you're not alone
I know they just won't let you be,
they push and pray
Don't run away
You can't be anyone else,
you've got to be yourself
You can do so much more than survive
There's something your so afraid of,
you refuse to see
If you caught a glimpse of what your made of,
you would be free
I know you know