do you like to hurt? i do, i do. then hurt ME!
i am so tired of people right now.
i have had a long week and i wanted one day to rest.
actually, what i really wanted to do was to go into manhattan and have lunch with meg, but that didn't work out.
ben had plans to sleep over at marymount last night, but he missed the ferry, so he stayed home. he then decided that he would go today and sleep over tonight. he invited me to go, not because he wanted to hang out, but because he didn't want to go in alone. i agreed, because i am a card-carrying member of POWMEH. i woke up this morning and decided that i really had to clean my room (its a mess!) and do a million loads of laundry, and i have lots of homework- a paper for one class and a project for another. i told ben that i really, really didn't want to go, that i had a lot of stuff to get done. instead of respecting my feelings, he begged me to go. i was barely able to stick to my guns. then, he HANGS UP ON ME!!! oh yes, we are apparently in 6th grade. i feel guilty after a few minutes, so i decide to IM him and tell him that fine, i will go. and i see his away message: "friends..they just let you down dont they. out with friends who dont disappoint.. " WTF?!?
i was really getting annoyed with ben before this, but thats it. screw him. i don't need that shit. i feel like he takes me for granted. we have NEVER hung out in my room. i like my room and i would like it if he would occasionally hang here with me. i help him with anything he needs (for example, lending him money and helping with laundry) and he just mocks me. he tries to make me feel bad because i want to be in a sorority, telling me that i am not like 'those girls' but 'those girls' are some of the nicest, smartest, and kindest people i have ever met. aaanyway, i am so mad right now.
i was thinking about calling him and being like 'we need to talk' but if he wants to talk he can march his ass up to the 10th floor and apoligize. (which, of course, he wont)
*let me just take a break from ranting and raving and say how much i <3 jared and miles! they are my best friends and both of them are always there for me. thank you guys. (and miles: i looove you!)
ok, done with being bitchy!! i am ready to have a great day. i will feel so happy once i get all my work done. i think that i will spend my evening watching a movie and reading. yay! (no, seriously, i am really excited. i just cant decide if i should watch 'igby goes down' or 'the royal tenenbaums' )
SUPER KAT IS BACK IN ACTION!!!!!!!!