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Sunday, June 18, 2006
Removal
I took down the last two posts, cause it just didn't seem fair considering the circumstances. I was pissed and then I was proven wrong, though the second post reflected accurately what I felt. I *do* wish he was more choosy with his "friends" online or off.
He did speak with my mother as I helped her in the office. I think they were probably on the phone for an hour. When I got back on with him he said that she had made it pretty clear that she wanted him to give me my freedom. Or at least until he got some aspects of his life straightened out. He said he heard me say the same things... And I guess that is what I have been saying for some time now. But I wish that getting what you want automatically meant that you feel good about it. I know it's the right thing for the time being but it doesn't mean I don't wish I could be there with or that I'm not inlove with him. But I know how this works. Whatever he says, my being there without certain things having been accomplished gives him a lackidasical manor/time frame in which things need to be accomplished.
I'm still wondering if this weekly church visit with him is a good idea, but I really see God in him and his need to truly understand the Truth. The depth of his emotion and mind is limitless. I just whisk he knew how to properly direct his good intentions
Removal
I took down the last two posts, cause it just didn't seem fair considering the circumstances. I was pissed and then I was proven wrong, though the second post reflected accurately what I felt. I *do* wish he was more choosy with his "friends" online or off.
He did speak with my mother as I helped her in the office. I think they were probably on the phone for an hour. When I got back on with him he said that she had made it pretty clear that she wanted him to give me my freedom. Or at least until he got some aspects of his life straightened out. He said he heard me say the same things... And I guess that is what I have been saying for some time now. But I wish that getting what you want automatically meant that you feel good about it. I know it's the right thing for the time being but it doesn't mean I don't wish I could be there with or that I'm not inlove with him. But I know how this works. Whatever he says, my being there without certain things having been accomplished gives him a lackidasical manor/time frame in which things need to be accomplished.
I'm still wondering if this weekly church visit with him is a good idea, but I really see God in him and his need to truly understand the Truth. The depth of his emotion and mind is limitless. I just whisk he knew how to properly direct his good intentions