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so theres only 17 days left of school. oh my goodness. i'm graduating this year. in a month to the day! i can't believe it. i don't even know what i'm doing after this.
i know valerie and i want to have a bakery but we're going to have to have money to do that...lots of money. and who knows when that will be and if it will ever be.
i think i'd like to go to school to be a nutritionist or something...maybe idk and God hasn't told me why he made me. it can't be for just doing well in school and being a good "friend"--trying to be a good "friend" even though i don't have real friends.
i really don't know what to do and college is a major decision. i dont want to waste four years of my life studying to do something and then end up not doing it. that would be a huge waste of time and money. money that could have been used for something else...a house, to maybe start the bakery if we have one...anything. ugh i wish he would just tell me why i'm here.
well i have a ten thousand word essay due in 19 days. i think i should get started on that. i figure if i can write one thousand or more words a day i'll be done about 9 days before i need to turn it in which would be awesome. the only thing is that i have a fifteen hundred word essay due wednesday and i have to read and write notes on some European history stuff and write my french presentation. speaking of french...i've forgotten a lot of it which really isn't good because my AP test is May 5th. so i dont have time to forget things because there is no time to re-learn anything. ah. pray i get everything done.
i've been really tired lately too and when i'm tired i don't think i write my best.
oh and i have to write my valedictorian speech. one of Ed's friends came to my birthday party and told me to wing it but i'm not that great with words and don't think i could do that. Mr.Christian gave us (Mandi, Valerie and myself) a winged valedictorian speech. it was really really good lol. o well whatever.
i know valerie and i want to have a bakery but we're going to have to have money to do that...lots of money. and who knows when that will be and if it will ever be.
i think i'd like to go to school to be a nutritionist or something...maybe idk and God hasn't told me why he made me. it can't be for just doing well in school and being a good "friend"--trying to be a good "friend" even though i don't have real friends.
i really don't know what to do and college is a major decision. i dont want to waste four years of my life studying to do something and then end up not doing it. that would be a huge waste of time and money. money that could have been used for something else...a house, to maybe start the bakery if we have one...anything. ugh i wish he would just tell me why i'm here.
well i have a ten thousand word essay due in 19 days. i think i should get started on that. i figure if i can write one thousand or more words a day i'll be done about 9 days before i need to turn it in which would be awesome. the only thing is that i have a fifteen hundred word essay due wednesday and i have to read and write notes on some European history stuff and write my french presentation. speaking of french...i've forgotten a lot of it which really isn't good because my AP test is May 5th. so i dont have time to forget things because there is no time to re-learn anything. ah. pray i get everything done.
i've been really tired lately too and when i'm tired i don't think i write my best.
oh and i have to write my valedictorian speech. one of Ed's friends came to my birthday party and told me to wing it but i'm not that great with words and don't think i could do that. Mr.Christian gave us (Mandi, Valerie and myself) a winged valedictorian speech. it was really really good lol. o well whatever.