tvd 3.11 "our town" aka what am i supposed to do with my life right now guys

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LIKE THE BEST. EPISODE. THIS SEASON. What didn't this episode have that I have wanted forever? And then something I've had in my roleplay/writing/tumblr life for months and now suddenly is canon WHAT EVEN OMG I'M HEAD TILTING SO HARD MY HEAD IS ON MY SHOULDER. HOLY CRAP.

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Oh my friend Hannah littledivinity wrote about the D/E scene and I wanted to ~share with you because it's spot-on, I think:

I shall see Elena try to put off a kiss, thinking Damon would go for it anyway, and that way she would be able to convince herself not to feel guilty because it was Damon taking what he wanted instead of them meeting in the middle. That sounds judgmental of Elena. I think Elena didn't even realize that's what she was doing or that she has a tendency to do that. She passes the buck on very few things, but her culpability in regard to Damon and Stefan and their triangle is one of them. She likes to act like Damon is reacting to absolutely nothing, and simply taking what isn't his, and what she wasn't offering. On some level, I suppose, that's vaguely correct. But when he said he knew they couldn't kiss, that flash of confusion almost implied that there's some sort of ... not game, but a standard set of actions she expects. And it comforts her that she doesn't have to ask herself if she wanted that kiss, because she can always tell herself that Damon took it, so it's a moot point. But here, she says no because she takes for granted that they'll kiss pretty soon, and when Damon says no, it's like she has to question for the first time, "Wait. But. But this is where we kiss ... I mean, where you kiss me." Or that's how I interpreted it.

At any rate, it was perfect, and I loved that development in Damon. I loved to see him trying to convince her not to blame Stefan too much. But mostly, I want to sort of suggest that the reason Damon took the step back is because the frustration and yearning and ... well frustration is gone now. He knows that she wants him, too. That she cares. And so he can wait now. Because Damon's hugest problem is his lack of self-worth and the idea that he is not deserving of the things he wants, and that's slowly being erased, leaving behind the sweet boy that Katherine Pierce had a deft hand in ruining. Just saying.

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OOOH, THANK YOU FOR SHARING WITH ME. Innnnnnteresting. ITA about Elena. She really would rather believe that she holds no culpability in this thing with Damon. Which is totally understandable, because this thing with Damon is awful, lol. (And also why Damon takes it upon himself to be the bad guy sometimes. See: the kiss.) I forgot to talk about this in my review, but I totally giggled when Elena kept saying "I can't" -- even after Damon said he wasn't planning to kiss her again! It was adorbs, and sounded like she was just having a conversation with herself. All the while staring at his mouth. :) I can't with these fools sometimes.

Agreed about Damon too. I suppose it's weird that he's so chill now, but. It's been confirmed that this thing with Elena is not just in his head now! THIS IS EVERYTHING. And I'd argue that it in fact has nothing to do with being "worthy" of Elena, even. Damon doesn't think of love in those terms. (Most of his "I don't deserve you" back in S2 came from the belief that he'd never be able to earn his forgiveness for snapping Jeremy's neck. But now that their friendship has been repaired, all is well.) The only thing that matters is that Elena feels what he feels. They can be undeserving wretches together. :) (Hence why "I like you now" was so important to their construction.)