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A friend of mine is pregnant. This is what the last few journal entries have been about. I actually found out the day of my open house and didn't sleep that night because it just wouldn't sink in for me. I was one of the last ones to find out because everybody was afraid of my reaction. My reaction was nothing spectacular or anything, I was just completely surprised.
This girl, like me, had alot of plans. She's in college and is absolutely amazing. Everyone was really looking forward to seeing where her dreams would take her. If you can picture me pregnant, that is what this is like. This is really hard for me, you guys. I think unconciously I had this girl as a role model. I know that most people have sex before they're married and I needed a person to look up to and to tell me that yes, waiting is worth it. She was going to be married in about a year (and still is-- they've just bumped the date up) but i would have been encouraged to know that some couples have the self-control to wait.
Like I said, this is just hard for me. It hit too close to home. This girl got straight A's, was Homecoming Queen, went off to college... I got straight A's, I am going off to college and need to know that being strong in the Lord is worth it. I guess I thought I'd write this to add to the "deep thoughts" that are floating around our live journal cyberspace these days. Some prayer would be really helpful for me too, you guys. I will need some reenforcement when the time comes to make the "no, i am going to wait" decision. I'm really coming to believe that it's a harder decision than I've thought up until this point.
This girl, like me, had alot of plans. She's in college and is absolutely amazing. Everyone was really looking forward to seeing where her dreams would take her. If you can picture me pregnant, that is what this is like. This is really hard for me, you guys. I think unconciously I had this girl as a role model. I know that most people have sex before they're married and I needed a person to look up to and to tell me that yes, waiting is worth it. She was going to be married in about a year (and still is-- they've just bumped the date up) but i would have been encouraged to know that some couples have the self-control to wait.
Like I said, this is just hard for me. It hit too close to home. This girl got straight A's, was Homecoming Queen, went off to college... I got straight A's, I am going off to college and need to know that being strong in the Lord is worth it. I guess I thought I'd write this to add to the "deep thoughts" that are floating around our live journal cyberspace these days. Some prayer would be really helpful for me too, you guys. I will need some reenforcement when the time comes to make the "no, i am going to wait" decision. I'm really coming to believe that it's a harder decision than I've thought up until this point.