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i hate this time of the school year. everyone is in a shitty modd, and that makes me in a shitty mood too. not that i don't have a reason to be a grump, i have my share of exams and papers to be doing. all i want to do is relax and spend my last 2 weeks before xmas break in a fun way. but i hate it cuz i can't. frustration!!!
i also don't like thinking about the future. that's been bugging me in a big way. i think its a girl thing, especially if it is involving certain boyfriends. its not like i can go up and ask him "so...in the event that we are still together at the end of school, do u think you'd want to be with me? or do you just wanna call it quits? i'm not sure i'd be ok with that bla bla bla...living together..." i think i'm just having issues if i want to be in that kind of situation. i want to move back to chicago after i graduate i think. i just don't want to comprimise over what i do. i can only do so much to make someone happy.
ok. i'm going to start thinking in the present for now on. because all this is making me frustrated and confused.
i can't wait for next friday night! its gunna be a rager, hopefully, and those who want to join me and alexa in a night of craziness, do give a note or a holler!
note to self: must start thinking of what i want for xmas.
i also don't like thinking about the future. that's been bugging me in a big way. i think its a girl thing, especially if it is involving certain boyfriends. its not like i can go up and ask him "so...in the event that we are still together at the end of school, do u think you'd want to be with me? or do you just wanna call it quits? i'm not sure i'd be ok with that bla bla bla...living together..." i think i'm just having issues if i want to be in that kind of situation. i want to move back to chicago after i graduate i think. i just don't want to comprimise over what i do. i can only do so much to make someone happy.
ok. i'm going to start thinking in the present for now on. because all this is making me frustrated and confused.
i can't wait for next friday night! its gunna be a rager, hopefully, and those who want to join me and alexa in a night of craziness, do give a note or a holler!
note to self: must start thinking of what i want for xmas.