Sad
Besides the tanning post earlier...
gosh...
I just didn't wanted to talk about it... i've felt so blocked and sad
My cat is missing since Sunday... and most friends have told me and cheered me up, that most cats at this age tend to flee and return to their homes, cos I dunno they like to party or something. The thing is that... since i remember, every frigging mascot i've had, get lost or flee and never come back, me previous cat also did the same but he was a male, they have told me female cats are a totally different story. But anyway... my frog escaped, both of my dogs, my other cat, my hamster... really what was next?? the animal I gave all my love just went away and the thing is that If I knew that she was dead I would cry a lot and be with a lot of grief but at least I would know of her were abouts... but this ... it's just horrible, I dunno if she's dead, suffering, hungry, sad, lost or even happy... I really don't know what to do
Everytime I listen to a sad song I immediately start crying, or if I go to the streets and call her name my voice gets all shaky and I have to turn back to my home to cry a lot more, in the morning I cry, when I see her empty food bowl... her comb ....
omg, even now my eyes get all wet and my throat hurts like a bitch
Some part of me has left... and I don't know how to make it come back :,( I'm just fucking praying and praying for her to come back, please lulu come back!
I miss you so fucking much I love you so so much <3
sorry for the emo post... I just need a cheer up
gosh...
I just didn't wanted to talk about it... i've felt so blocked and sad
My cat is missing since Sunday... and most friends have told me and cheered me up, that most cats at this age tend to flee and return to their homes, cos I dunno they like to party or something. The thing is that... since i remember, every frigging mascot i've had, get lost or flee and never come back, me previous cat also did the same but he was a male, they have told me female cats are a totally different story. But anyway... my frog escaped, both of my dogs, my other cat, my hamster... really what was next?? the animal I gave all my love just went away and the thing is that If I knew that she was dead I would cry a lot and be with a lot of grief but at least I would know of her were abouts... but this ... it's just horrible, I dunno if she's dead, suffering, hungry, sad, lost or even happy... I really don't know what to do
Everytime I listen to a sad song I immediately start crying, or if I go to the streets and call her name my voice gets all shaky and I have to turn back to my home to cry a lot more, in the morning I cry, when I see her empty food bowl... her comb ....
omg, even now my eyes get all wet and my throat hurts like a bitch
Some part of me has left... and I don't know how to make it come back :,( I'm just fucking praying and praying for her to come back, please lulu come back!
I miss you so fucking much I love you so so much <3
sorry for the emo post... I just need a cheer up