just feel like updating. life is pretty good.
have you done everything you've wanted to do in life, or do you feel like you are in the middle of it? i kinda feel like i am in the middle but i also feel like i've done everything i have ever wanted to do. i have an amazing, beautiful, hilarious and talented wife and this well behaved, smart, perfect son. i've been in a successful band (finally! you can't imagine the struggle it was for me to finally be in a band that took off) and i've toured the world. almost went to all of the continents but i didn't quite make it to antarctica. the iceberg we were going to land on broke off 15 years before it was supposed to, a day before we were going to go there. to think my band could have landed on that and we could have all died still blows my mind. i think it was meant to be that we stayed back and never made it because my (now wife, then) girlfriend texted me to tell me she was pregnant. i couldnt believe it like i was like "are you serious??" and i was stoked but i couldnt believe it so she sent me a picture of the test and the results. it was insane. i was suddenly a dad, and i didnt really want to go over to antarctica after all with all the risks involved. i was never one to be a pussy but now suddenly i was a dad. there is a difference. who knows, and maybe some day we will attempt it during a different time of the season. but id rather live and see my son grow up than die trying to break some cheesy world record that someone else will just beat a few years later. i dont need to do anything wild anymore to have a good time. last night my wife and i played board games and card games and it was a blast. we can poke fun at each other and tease each other and we're both pretty good at being bad losers and handling it when the other gloats because its all playful i dunno. but honestly? i don't ever wanna play monopoly with her cos for real, that game is a slow death and it makes me a really sore loser. like you have to sell property by property and you die so effing slow dude so count me out.
but anyways with the start of a new year there are always these new years resolutions people make and sure, i know we plan to keep them but most of us really dont. its more like goals and things wed like to do and we use the new year as an excuse to take advantage of it. i dunno. but ive never really been one for new years resolutions... if i want to do something i dont wait until the new year to start, i just start the day i plan to change something. you dont really need an excuse or a special day to cut bad habits or change your life. finding out that day in south america i was going to be a dad sort of changed my life the second i heard it and that was in march, i wasnt going to be like oh crap. gotta wait until january 1st to shape up and be a better person for my kid and my girl. and actually it still is changing my life day by day, especially holding my little human. being a parent you want to do the best and be the best person you can for your kid. for your family.
and speaking of family, im lucky enough to be with my wife who is actually the mother of my child still today. i know thats pretty much unheard of with the divorce rates and phones full of "baby momma" numbers some people seem to have. blah. and i dont blame anyone that has had to split up- things happen- but my parents almost divorced when i was six and it screwed me up a lot. as a kid you dont really know it isnt your fault. everyone is fighting and yelling and you feel like its because of you, or something you arent doing that would make them stop if you could figure out what it was. it was so weird flying back and forth on planes by myself between my mom and my dad when i was only eight. especially getting sick and throwing up all over myself, losing the plane ticket and having a stewardess take pity on me and let me fly anyway while i was a sobbing mess. after all of that its no wonder i hate flying, right? i dont think people realize the effect everything they do has on their kid and how it shapes them into being an adult. i was pretty screwed up for a while and i think i still am, but having a family of my own is ironing out any kinks i had or at least making me feel like i can be loved and productive. i just think i had a first hand view of not only what good my parents did for me, but what to avoid doing. i am not really mad or bitter anymore and i dont blame them because i can look back and know they tried their best with what they had to give and what they knew and hell i am sure ash and i will make some mistakes, but i think over all we arent doing too bad so far. i just want my kid now, and any future kids we have (please get on that ovulating thing you do ash so we can speed things up. i'll switch to boxers and do my part) to be healthy physically and mentally, to be happy and to never grow up (im talking past teenage years- i fully expect to be hated during those. i mean dude teenagers hate everything) wishing my wife and i had done something differently. or at least to know we did our best for their best. i cant wait to see what happens and im excited to be going through it all with my soulmate by my side. to me this is all so much better than breaking some stupid world record, or getting so drunk while hosting a jingle bell bash that i pass out or get my face punched. yeah i am still working on cutting out that last one, haha.
yep so i managed to get an update out and im not even due. how awesome is that? take care guys and have an amazing new years. so far i cant complain. and me not complaining says a lot- i am the type of guy to complain my ice cream is too cold haha. xo pete.
but anyways with the start of a new year there are always these new years resolutions people make and sure, i know we plan to keep them but most of us really dont. its more like goals and things wed like to do and we use the new year as an excuse to take advantage of it. i dunno. but ive never really been one for new years resolutions... if i want to do something i dont wait until the new year to start, i just start the day i plan to change something. you dont really need an excuse or a special day to cut bad habits or change your life. finding out that day in south america i was going to be a dad sort of changed my life the second i heard it and that was in march, i wasnt going to be like oh crap. gotta wait until january 1st to shape up and be a better person for my kid and my girl. and actually it still is changing my life day by day, especially holding my little human. being a parent you want to do the best and be the best person you can for your kid. for your family.
and speaking of family, im lucky enough to be with my wife who is actually the mother of my child still today. i know thats pretty much unheard of with the divorce rates and phones full of "baby momma" numbers some people seem to have. blah. and i dont blame anyone that has had to split up- things happen- but my parents almost divorced when i was six and it screwed me up a lot. as a kid you dont really know it isnt your fault. everyone is fighting and yelling and you feel like its because of you, or something you arent doing that would make them stop if you could figure out what it was. it was so weird flying back and forth on planes by myself between my mom and my dad when i was only eight. especially getting sick and throwing up all over myself, losing the plane ticket and having a stewardess take pity on me and let me fly anyway while i was a sobbing mess. after all of that its no wonder i hate flying, right? i dont think people realize the effect everything they do has on their kid and how it shapes them into being an adult. i was pretty screwed up for a while and i think i still am, but having a family of my own is ironing out any kinks i had or at least making me feel like i can be loved and productive. i just think i had a first hand view of not only what good my parents did for me, but what to avoid doing. i am not really mad or bitter anymore and i dont blame them because i can look back and know they tried their best with what they had to give and what they knew and hell i am sure ash and i will make some mistakes, but i think over all we arent doing too bad so far. i just want my kid now, and any future kids we have (please get on that ovulating thing you do ash so we can speed things up. i'll switch to boxers and do my part) to be healthy physically and mentally, to be happy and to never grow up (im talking past teenage years- i fully expect to be hated during those. i mean dude teenagers hate everything) wishing my wife and i had done something differently. or at least to know we did our best for their best. i cant wait to see what happens and im excited to be going through it all with my soulmate by my side. to me this is all so much better than breaking some stupid world record, or getting so drunk while hosting a jingle bell bash that i pass out or get my face punched. yeah i am still working on cutting out that last one, haha.
yep so i managed to get an update out and im not even due. how awesome is that? take care guys and have an amazing new years. so far i cant complain. and me not complaining says a lot- i am the type of guy to complain my ice cream is too cold haha. xo pete.