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instead of going out tonight because there was no way i could make it home after the show, i put on some music and went into the garage, where i got to start taking apart my favorite vespa ever. I had forgotten how much i love spending time in a garage building things. it's the one place that i really feel like i have control over what's going on. If something isn't fitting right, or won't work properly, it's 99% my problem. my fault. my deal. on the off chance that it's not my fault, i can fix it. Even though the bike is in shambles, i feel better about it then i do most things in my life right now. I feel pretty helpless in most realms of my life lately. I don't feel like i can fix anything, and that's some big shit.
I can't really figure out if that's a good thing or not.
I can't really figure out if that's a good thing or not.