get ready to hear (read) a lot of complaining
this is the list of things i am not happy with right now (you've been warned).
1. the people in the room above me sound like they are playing bowling ball dodgeball. necessary? i have a headache, shut up.
2. my computer might be the biggest piece of shit ever. i won't tell you all the things wrong with it, because that would take up a whole page. however, i am entirely too lazy/busy to bring it in to get fixed. (so all of this could be eliminated if i wasn't the (second) biggest piece of shit ever.)
3. my day today. woke up at 9. edited photos for my midterm. went and printed out photos for my midterm right up until class, so no breakfast, lunch, or shower. critique 2-5. lower is having "my big fat greek vomit" theme night, so no dinner either. work 6-12. probably getting run over by a train because i passed out in the tracks on my way home.
4. my photo midterm. it was due today and i hate everything i passed in. i maybe liked one of the photos that i turned in, and even that i think was mediocre and lacked any creative or original vision. seeing my work up with everyone else's amazing work made me feel like shit. my teacher told me he knew i could do better, because he's seen my portfolio and asked what direction i wanted to go in. i had no idea because i felt so shitty, i never wanted to think about taking photos again.
summary: i lack any real inspiration, creativity, or artistic ability.
5. i feel like i've hit a wall with CCE. i don't really feel like i contribute anything to the show this semester, and don't feel like i'm improving on my improv. i know what good improv is, i can critique other people, but i'm apparently just not a good actor, as i can't put any of it into my improv.
6. I don't ever get into the Herald anymore. and when i do, i hardly get to go on assignment. i end up doing menial tasks and surfing the internet all day. i shouldn't be complaining because even that is a great resume builder, but i just want to work in the field with real professionals, and be able to take something i'm proud of. especially when i do get to go out, the other photographers will look over my photos after and give me advice. why can't i have that anymore agh
7. my social life. i love my friends. don't get me wrong, they're awesome. but i feel like i've stopped meeting new people and that sucks. i want to do new things, try new things, but i don't know how. as a result, i get pretty sick of people sometimes, and end up being a bitch, so they hate me. i also hate when i only see my best friend once every month or so because someone else doesn't want him to ever talk to me ever again. whatever.
8. my major. ok, so i'm glad i'm at least doing comm instead of human development, but i was hoping i'd have a chance to at least take more than one class that does visual art. for a liberal arts school, BC does a pretty shitty job offering any choices for visual comm. guess i'm just going to have to go at that one on my own, just like every other fucking thing i do here.
9. oip. or, office of lets try and make going abroad the most impossible thing for abby to do ever. fuck you all. i don't even want to elaborate cause i might kill someone.
10. fire inspections. rumor has it walsh is getting done this week. but seriously, we had an inspection the week before break. do we REALLY need another one now? am i ever REALLY going to take the stuff down from my ceiling? is the boston fire department ever REALLY going to come do "random checks of any room they want"? probably not. so suck my dick.
11. new media. i want a job in it. but while it is so god damn present in our society, there is little to no way of making money off of it, that doesn't involve long amounts of time spent doing all of this bullshit for nothing, and even then there is a very small chance of ever getting noticed. and yet, i keep on tweeting.
12. the bag of swedish fish i'm eating are stale. probably because for the first time ever the vending machine in devlin was working and i just wanted a tasty treat. unfortunately, i got a weapon of mass teeth destruction.
i'm sure i could go on forever, but i have to go to work. because the people need their ice cream, damnit.
1. the people in the room above me sound like they are playing bowling ball dodgeball. necessary? i have a headache, shut up.
2. my computer might be the biggest piece of shit ever. i won't tell you all the things wrong with it, because that would take up a whole page. however, i am entirely too lazy/busy to bring it in to get fixed. (so all of this could be eliminated if i wasn't the (second) biggest piece of shit ever.)
3. my day today. woke up at 9. edited photos for my midterm. went and printed out photos for my midterm right up until class, so no breakfast, lunch, or shower. critique 2-5. lower is having "my big fat greek vomit" theme night, so no dinner either. work 6-12. probably getting run over by a train because i passed out in the tracks on my way home.
4. my photo midterm. it was due today and i hate everything i passed in. i maybe liked one of the photos that i turned in, and even that i think was mediocre and lacked any creative or original vision. seeing my work up with everyone else's amazing work made me feel like shit. my teacher told me he knew i could do better, because he's seen my portfolio and asked what direction i wanted to go in. i had no idea because i felt so shitty, i never wanted to think about taking photos again.
summary: i lack any real inspiration, creativity, or artistic ability.
5. i feel like i've hit a wall with CCE. i don't really feel like i contribute anything to the show this semester, and don't feel like i'm improving on my improv. i know what good improv is, i can critique other people, but i'm apparently just not a good actor, as i can't put any of it into my improv.
6. I don't ever get into the Herald anymore. and when i do, i hardly get to go on assignment. i end up doing menial tasks and surfing the internet all day. i shouldn't be complaining because even that is a great resume builder, but i just want to work in the field with real professionals, and be able to take something i'm proud of. especially when i do get to go out, the other photographers will look over my photos after and give me advice. why can't i have that anymore agh
7. my social life. i love my friends. don't get me wrong, they're awesome. but i feel like i've stopped meeting new people and that sucks. i want to do new things, try new things, but i don't know how. as a result, i get pretty sick of people sometimes, and end up being a bitch, so they hate me. i also hate when i only see my best friend once every month or so because someone else doesn't want him to ever talk to me ever again. whatever.
8. my major. ok, so i'm glad i'm at least doing comm instead of human development, but i was hoping i'd have a chance to at least take more than one class that does visual art. for a liberal arts school, BC does a pretty shitty job offering any choices for visual comm. guess i'm just going to have to go at that one on my own, just like every other fucking thing i do here.
9. oip. or, office of lets try and make going abroad the most impossible thing for abby to do ever. fuck you all. i don't even want to elaborate cause i might kill someone.
10. fire inspections. rumor has it walsh is getting done this week. but seriously, we had an inspection the week before break. do we REALLY need another one now? am i ever REALLY going to take the stuff down from my ceiling? is the boston fire department ever REALLY going to come do "random checks of any room they want"? probably not. so suck my dick.
11. new media. i want a job in it. but while it is so god damn present in our society, there is little to no way of making money off of it, that doesn't involve long amounts of time spent doing all of this bullshit for nothing, and even then there is a very small chance of ever getting noticed. and yet, i keep on tweeting.
12. the bag of swedish fish i'm eating are stale. probably because for the first time ever the vending machine in devlin was working and i just wanted a tasty treat. unfortunately, i got a weapon of mass teeth destruction.
i'm sure i could go on forever, but i have to go to work. because the people need their ice cream, damnit.