What the fuck am I doing commenting on here, making contact with you, making myself vulnerable again? I have no idea. Maybe I'm fucking..insane or something.
I'm well aware of your feelings towards me, because of whatever it may be that I did. You should be well aware of my feelings towards you as well, and if you don't, well, I think you can be an asshole. You probably have no interest in this whatsoever. I am probably wasting my time and you are probably going to overreact to this entire thing, because, as much as you might want to deny it, you're overdramatic too.
But, you're not a fuckup. You've made something for yourself, even if it isn't much. (some of) These kids you're friends with, they have it easy. They won't have to work very hard. They come from money, they don't have to struggle. You, on the other hand, you work for what you have, even if it isn't much. Your job may suck, but you have one. You're independent, you're making it on your own. Who do you rely on? Yourself. Some of these kids will never know how that feels, and it's sad, but that's how things go.
Of course there's drama, most of your friends are still teenagers. With that comes drama..I mean, I would know right? I'm the most overdramatic person ever. You're never going to truly escape drama either. Life=drama, unless you go to some far away island and live in a shack or something.
Those kids are not exactly like you at all. You've been through shit, a lot of shit..what have they been through? Bad girlfriends, and getting yelled at by their parents. Big deal.
Your brother does not hate you. Maybe a bit disappointed, or upset, but he does not hate you. And you have an amazing sister, who loves you very, very much, who will continue to love you no matter what you do. That's really rare.
You are something worthwhile. I've had talks with you, about everything, everything I couldn't talk to other people about. You can be pretty cool Peter, you know that. At one point in time, I really REALLY liked you, and that probably doesn't matter now, but goddamn..I don't ever like anyone, and I really liked you. I was waiting for you and Melissa to be through, I wanted you Peter, I thought you were fucking awesome.
And plans change, shit happens.
You already are something Peter. You're a wonderful brother, and a good friend, and you kill things for money. That's pretty cool, right?
This could be completely overlooked, and just the fact that I am posting on here could cause some uproar, but I don't give a shit, because despite everything, I still care about you, a little.
I'm well aware of your feelings towards me, because of whatever it may be that I did. You should be well aware of my feelings towards you as well, and if you don't, well, I think you can be an asshole. You probably have no interest in this whatsoever. I am probably wasting my time and you are probably going to overreact to this entire thing, because, as much as you might want to deny it, you're overdramatic too.
But, you're not a fuckup. You've made something for yourself, even if it isn't much. (some of) These kids you're friends with, they have it easy. They won't have to work very hard. They come from money, they don't have to struggle. You, on the other hand, you work for what you have, even if it isn't much. Your job may suck, but you have one. You're independent, you're making it on your own. Who do you rely on? Yourself. Some of these kids will never know how that feels, and it's sad, but that's how things go.
Of course there's drama, most of your friends are still teenagers. With that comes drama..I mean, I would know right? I'm the most overdramatic person ever. You're never going to truly escape drama either. Life=drama, unless you go to some far away island and live in a shack or something.
Those kids are not exactly like you at all. You've been through shit, a lot of shit..what have they been through? Bad girlfriends, and getting yelled at by their parents. Big deal.
Your brother does not hate you. Maybe a bit disappointed, or upset, but he does not hate you. And you have an amazing sister, who loves you very, very much, who will continue to love you no matter what you do. That's really rare.
You are something worthwhile. I've had talks with you, about everything, everything I couldn't talk to other people about. You can be pretty cool Peter, you know that. At one point in time, I really REALLY liked you, and that probably doesn't matter now, but goddamn..I don't ever like anyone, and I really liked you. I was waiting for you and Melissa to be through, I wanted you Peter, I thought you were fucking awesome.
And plans change, shit happens.
You already are something Peter. You're a wonderful brother, and a good friend, and you kill things for money. That's pretty cool, right?
This could be completely overlooked, and just the fact that I am posting on here could cause some uproar, but I don't give a shit, because despite everything, I still care about you, a little.
-brittney.
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