continuation of before
As I said earlier, I do feel some regret and I do feel like a piece of me is missing and I miss her.. even though it's only been 1 day I miss her a lot and I wish I could still be with her and things be ok between us and be able to go down to her house and see her and hang out with her. We did have a lot of fun times and I wish those fun times could continute. She never did give me a straight answer as to why she wanted to end the relationship. The only reason was... "Ok... I did some thinking and I don't think we should continue this. Last night just wasn't the same for me... when I kissed you, I didn't feel anything." She didn't feel anything because she didn't want to.. she was doing basically everything in her power to take the pussy way out and instead of working and trying to make the relationship work... she decides to just end it. I don't understand.. she was doing everything she possibly could last time we broke up to convince me to go back out with her and when I finally say yes to going back out with her, she acts like she doesn't want to and also because she claims to have a life again. She bitched out on me for my show. You'd think that even if I said if you want to hang out with your friends, you can you would still refuse and say no i want to go.. it's your first show in a year and a half and I want to see you succeed... but no it's well if it's ok then ok and go and call ur friends in front of me nonetheless and make plans. That really disappointed me... in fact it crushed me. It was nice to see how much support I really get after doing so much for jes. There were tons of times that I hung out w/ her friends or did things despite me not really wanting to because I don't like most of em. I still supported her... I convinced her and urged her to play softball. Hell I even got her the contact information because I know the coach for the team. A few nights ago every time she would try and say I did something and I put her on the spot by asking her to list 2 things that I did that caused her to be pissed off she couldn't and wouldn't... she said I'm not gonna list u these things, u know what you did. Despite the fact that I still have no idea wut I did or didn't do. I don't know what to do or say... a lot of this just completely spun so far out of control that there was no recovering and getting back on the right path.