so some days...
I feel like I flip out, some days I feel like shit, some days just decided not to go my way. However, then I hear news that a kid I knew, a kid I spent time with at the beginning of this school year died this morning. It's things like that that cause my life to go into perspective. I've faced a lot more death than I ever have in my life this year. It sort of makes me think and gives me time away from my own personal issues which seem so miniscule in comparison that they almost make me feel like shit for worry about them.
I don't like wake up calls like that, I really like sometimes would rather go on without having to face such harsh realities, but hey I suppose there's nothing I can really do about that. I think today was just one of those days that I can forget about, granted I had plenty of great times, but just my overall demeanor at the moment doesn't seem to be where it should be. I think a part of that rests with the fact that this week is going to go by quickly. I obviously don't mind being at school, in fact I love it, I just feel like no enough time is given to the people back here this week. It's tough when every day is filled with so much to do, I really tried to cram too much into this week and the schedules just don't seem to want to work out with the sort of precision they usually do, but hey there are weeks like that and it happens. I just felt a need to write tonight, I've always felt that writing clears my head and gives me the sort of peace my mind is so desperately seeking, it's either this or a bunch of random thoughts bouncing around until I finally suppress them enough to go to sleep.
Not much else I can really say, I'm just sort blah right now, but that happens. I don't think a day in which I find out somebody I personally knew died can be a good day. So what can I say?
Also, disrespect is pretty damn retarded and it gets on my nerves. People pretty much feel it necessary to push as far as they can and it just bothers me. I'm glad I am able to keep my mouth shut though and I'm glad that I'm rational, I just wish people would learn a little respect. I'm just glad I can trust, it makes life so much easier.
I don't like wake up calls like that, I really like sometimes would rather go on without having to face such harsh realities, but hey I suppose there's nothing I can really do about that. I think today was just one of those days that I can forget about, granted I had plenty of great times, but just my overall demeanor at the moment doesn't seem to be where it should be. I think a part of that rests with the fact that this week is going to go by quickly. I obviously don't mind being at school, in fact I love it, I just feel like no enough time is given to the people back here this week. It's tough when every day is filled with so much to do, I really tried to cram too much into this week and the schedules just don't seem to want to work out with the sort of precision they usually do, but hey there are weeks like that and it happens. I just felt a need to write tonight, I've always felt that writing clears my head and gives me the sort of peace my mind is so desperately seeking, it's either this or a bunch of random thoughts bouncing around until I finally suppress them enough to go to sleep.
Not much else I can really say, I'm just sort blah right now, but that happens. I don't think a day in which I find out somebody I personally knew died can be a good day. So what can I say?
Also, disrespect is pretty damn retarded and it gets on my nerves. People pretty much feel it necessary to push as far as they can and it just bothers me. I'm glad I am able to keep my mouth shut though and I'm glad that I'm rational, I just wish people would learn a little respect. I'm just glad I can trust, it makes life so much easier.