3 AM
what do you do when you're too petrified to sleep? What do you do when you can't control a situation no matter how hard you try? What do you do when you're haunted by an hour quickly approaching?
So many questions, two possibilities, each leading only to more and more questions.
I realize now that questions are the single greatest cause of fear, especially the type that cannot be answered by anything except for time.
I pray these fears are unwarranted, I pray that when all is said and done I can sleep.
For now I sit here, staring at a blank monitor, I stare with nothing to keep me company but my imagination, I hate my imagination, it only makes me worry more.
5 days I go home... let's hope I'm as excited tomorrow as I was 2 days ago, and not searching for more answers.
God damn I love you, it's insane...
So many questions, two possibilities, each leading only to more and more questions.
I realize now that questions are the single greatest cause of fear, especially the type that cannot be answered by anything except for time.
I pray these fears are unwarranted, I pray that when all is said and done I can sleep.
For now I sit here, staring at a blank monitor, I stare with nothing to keep me company but my imagination, I hate my imagination, it only makes me worry more.
5 days I go home... let's hope I'm as excited tomorrow as I was 2 days ago, and not searching for more answers.
God damn I love you, it's insane...