damn boredom

[peter12808]

I've been bored today, just seemed like every time I tried to find something to do it just didn't work out. Although I'm not particularly sad because I've felt sort of blah and now some really weird news has been brought to my attention. I don't think I should get into details considering I'm not even in contact with this person anymore, but I still feel like I need to reflect. Today I've finally realized I'm getting older, I finally understand what it's like to be 18, it's that time when all your childhood images are shattered. In regards to certain people I still view them a certain way and it's seems like this year, they're all destroying that image I once held, some good, most of them bad. I really just don't get some things, why I've lost contact with the people I have, why people have changed into what they are now, etc. Although I'm not saddened by most of the changes in my life thusfar. My current situation is better than I could have possibly imagined and I have no right writing this entry if I sound at all depressed. Really I'm just blah today and the news I received just put me in that mood to write again. I really don't think I should not address this particular thing, but not because I have any sort of role in it whatsoever, just some sort of weird friend obligation, whatever I'll figure it out. I want Nicole to come home, I miss her, the fact that she doesn't really like wisconsin doesn't help that much either. I missed her especially cause of how today went, cause when she's back her I know we'll find something entertaining to do, and then I don't write entries like this. Would have been nice to go out today but all my friends were busy so there wasn't anything I could really do about it, wow I really did sound depressed in this entry, and I'm not at all, eh whatever, it's not important...

~J summary:
- I never realized how much people have changed...
- I'm just blah...