Queer Up North
It's hard to describe my mood right now.
Im not even angry enough to swear. I'm not feeling sad. I wouldn't quite put it down as depressed...I guess the word I'm looking for is cynical.
Yet again, Kate didn't wait for me walking home. I know I wasnt that slow getting my things, I left the school grounds at 3:03 (I checked on my phone.)
As I was about to cross the first road just outside school, I saw Kate and Jess walking p the road not too far ahead of me. I lost sight of them as the road was really busy and they had turned the bend. So I walked as fast as I could that was still classed as walking, and nearly caught up to them. They were across the road again, but not to far away. If I was to estimate, It wouldn't of took 30 seconds for me to reach them If they had waited. Luke (year 9 - not the same from my last entry) shouted Kate. She turned round and waved to us. I mouthed 'wait' and held my hand out. But her and Jess carried on - at a faster pace. So me and luke hurried as fast as we could - but only reached them near to the exit of the park.
"Kate's a slag" I called cheerfully.
"I know I am," she said and giggled slightly. It's kind of one of our things.
So I asked how come they didn't wait for me, at which Jess snapped she needed to get home. I told her that I shouted them and they didn't wait for me, and that i was only across the road. Jess started getting really angry because she was having her hair done and was running late. So I responded that I was only 30 seconds behind (I actually checked using the stopwatch on my phone, measuring from when they passed a long stick on the ground until we did, it was 26 seconds. Kate said mobile hairdressers charge more if you were late, but not in an angry voice or anything, more her explaining voice. So I said again how 30 seconds wouldn't make a difference (which it wouldn't - It takes longer to have a slash!) noticing my voice was getting more annoyed. But then Jess's voice got angrier and angrier at each of her responses, until we told each other to f-off.
I said bye to Luke and walked the way I walk when I'm on my own and not going the shop - which is still on the main road then below the apartments that have a side street linking the main road to mine. Not only was this quicker, but It mean't I didn't have to walk behind Kate and Jess. As I was walking up my road, I heard Kate shout me - I ignored her and continued to listen to Scissor Sisters on my ipod. Jess had gone home by this point I should add. A short while later, I felt Kate's tug on my arm. I pulled on the lead which made my earphones fall out into my hand. Kate asked me not to be in a mood with her, and gave her my explanation. She tried to hug me as I went to enter my house, but I shrugged her off saying "Kate, Dont, Please"
See this isn't the first time they've done this. When Jess isn't walking, Kate doesn't have a problem waiting for me (unless she's with Matty hen she walks off aswell - but generally waits if I shout her) But it's happening more and more that Kate and Jess walk off on me, the case almost always being that Jess need's to get home quick. Even If I'm in a rush to get home - I still have no problem waiting for people.
But then again, these past 2 weeks, on 3 seperate occasion's I've shouted Jess and smiled as I passed her in the corridor, and she's blanked me. And the other day, As I was leaving form to go to the canteen and wait for Kate and Jess if she would be walking that day, I saw Kate walking down the corridor my form is situated on, saw Jess shout her (Her form is at the other end of the corridor (about 3/4 classses down) and them walk off through the doors leading to sister-marie hall. I even waited in the canteen for them for 10 minuites, and they didn't show, so yet again I had to walk home alone another night.
So I dont know who to blame for it. Every down and then It doesn't matter, but as of late its getting more and more of a regular occurrence and I'm sick of it!
I think I'll start going the Park near Luke's after school more often. At least then people wait for me (and at time's the company is better)
So maybe know you can have a better understanding of the mood I'm currently in.
Today wasn't all doom and gloom though. The school day was pretty fun.
Every PE lesson, Porrino ask's Mr Flynn (our teacher) If he watched [i]hollyoaks last night[/i]. So we were doing Javelin today since we're on track and field. He told us to go"line up by the tape measure, and Mr Porrino - it's that orange thing, they dont have them on Hollyoaks so you wouldn't know" I think thats the greatest line Mr Flynn's ever come out with! He's a Ledge!
In Art, Mr Leather gave me an A, which he said was well deserved, and there was a possibility of be being entered for the exam early! I justhave to ask him later for more info! Which is fantastic! ...But the double GCSE students have been working towards a double GCSE almost all year, and the exam isnt that far away, I've no idea whether I could put in enough work to catch up with the work they've done to the quality they've done it - I don't even know if it's possible. But just the fact I'd be considered as good enough to enter is a great confidence boost. I guess after all our differences I can let leath's off now!
Me and Jen were discussing all things gay last lesson in Physics, talking about FAKE (the manga/ova), The Scissor Sister's concert (Because of that concert Scissor Sisters always remind me of Jenny - so that's why I was listening to them walking home), Musicals, and Canal Street. Then when we were at our lockers getting our things to leave school, Navin - who had been to Manchester with leisure and tourism today, shown us a booklet he'd picked up called "Queer Up North" so me and Jen were like proper reading it lol. Amongst adverts for gay shows/poetry/art, was an article called "Is Queer Culture Obsolete?" which we found proper funny! And on the way out of school (Jen was going to a orchestra rehearsal for Joseph - this years school show, in the performing Arts block, which I pass on my way out so we walked together, we started slagging of the Year 7's who were outside the hall waiting for Audition's to be part of the chorus line. When will they learn the evil of the drama department's musicals!!!
So yeah. School was good, the walk home wasn't.
Im not even angry enough to swear. I'm not feeling sad. I wouldn't quite put it down as depressed...I guess the word I'm looking for is cynical.
Yet again, Kate didn't wait for me walking home. I know I wasnt that slow getting my things, I left the school grounds at 3:03 (I checked on my phone.)
As I was about to cross the first road just outside school, I saw Kate and Jess walking p the road not too far ahead of me. I lost sight of them as the road was really busy and they had turned the bend. So I walked as fast as I could that was still classed as walking, and nearly caught up to them. They were across the road again, but not to far away. If I was to estimate, It wouldn't of took 30 seconds for me to reach them If they had waited. Luke (year 9 - not the same from my last entry) shouted Kate. She turned round and waved to us. I mouthed 'wait' and held my hand out. But her and Jess carried on - at a faster pace. So me and luke hurried as fast as we could - but only reached them near to the exit of the park.
"Kate's a slag" I called cheerfully.
"I know I am," she said and giggled slightly. It's kind of one of our things.
So I asked how come they didn't wait for me, at which Jess snapped she needed to get home. I told her that I shouted them and they didn't wait for me, and that i was only across the road. Jess started getting really angry because she was having her hair done and was running late. So I responded that I was only 30 seconds behind (I actually checked using the stopwatch on my phone, measuring from when they passed a long stick on the ground until we did, it was 26 seconds. Kate said mobile hairdressers charge more if you were late, but not in an angry voice or anything, more her explaining voice. So I said again how 30 seconds wouldn't make a difference (which it wouldn't - It takes longer to have a slash!) noticing my voice was getting more annoyed. But then Jess's voice got angrier and angrier at each of her responses, until we told each other to f-off.
I said bye to Luke and walked the way I walk when I'm on my own and not going the shop - which is still on the main road then below the apartments that have a side street linking the main road to mine. Not only was this quicker, but It mean't I didn't have to walk behind Kate and Jess. As I was walking up my road, I heard Kate shout me - I ignored her and continued to listen to Scissor Sisters on my ipod. Jess had gone home by this point I should add. A short while later, I felt Kate's tug on my arm. I pulled on the lead which made my earphones fall out into my hand. Kate asked me not to be in a mood with her, and gave her my explanation. She tried to hug me as I went to enter my house, but I shrugged her off saying "Kate, Dont, Please"
See this isn't the first time they've done this. When Jess isn't walking, Kate doesn't have a problem waiting for me (unless she's with Matty hen she walks off aswell - but generally waits if I shout her) But it's happening more and more that Kate and Jess walk off on me, the case almost always being that Jess need's to get home quick. Even If I'm in a rush to get home - I still have no problem waiting for people.
But then again, these past 2 weeks, on 3 seperate occasion's I've shouted Jess and smiled as I passed her in the corridor, and she's blanked me. And the other day, As I was leaving form to go to the canteen and wait for Kate and Jess if she would be walking that day, I saw Kate walking down the corridor my form is situated on, saw Jess shout her (Her form is at the other end of the corridor (about 3/4 classses down) and them walk off through the doors leading to sister-marie hall. I even waited in the canteen for them for 10 minuites, and they didn't show, so yet again I had to walk home alone another night.
So I dont know who to blame for it. Every down and then It doesn't matter, but as of late its getting more and more of a regular occurrence and I'm sick of it!
I think I'll start going the Park near Luke's after school more often. At least then people wait for me (and at time's the company is better)
So maybe know you can have a better understanding of the mood I'm currently in.
Today wasn't all doom and gloom though. The school day was pretty fun.
Every PE lesson, Porrino ask's Mr Flynn (our teacher) If he watched [i]hollyoaks last night[/i]. So we were doing Javelin today since we're on track and field. He told us to go"line up by the tape measure, and Mr Porrino - it's that orange thing, they dont have them on Hollyoaks so you wouldn't know" I think thats the greatest line Mr Flynn's ever come out with! He's a Ledge!
In Art, Mr Leather gave me an A, which he said was well deserved, and there was a possibility of be being entered for the exam early! I justhave to ask him later for more info! Which is fantastic! ...But the double GCSE students have been working towards a double GCSE almost all year, and the exam isnt that far away, I've no idea whether I could put in enough work to catch up with the work they've done to the quality they've done it - I don't even know if it's possible. But just the fact I'd be considered as good enough to enter is a great confidence boost. I guess after all our differences I can let leath's off now!
Me and Jen were discussing all things gay last lesson in Physics, talking about FAKE (the manga/ova), The Scissor Sister's concert (Because of that concert Scissor Sisters always remind me of Jenny - so that's why I was listening to them walking home), Musicals, and Canal Street. Then when we were at our lockers getting our things to leave school, Navin - who had been to Manchester with leisure and tourism today, shown us a booklet he'd picked up called "Queer Up North" so me and Jen were like proper reading it lol. Amongst adverts for gay shows/poetry/art, was an article called "Is Queer Culture Obsolete?" which we found proper funny! And on the way out of school (Jen was going to a orchestra rehearsal for Joseph - this years school show, in the performing Arts block, which I pass on my way out so we walked together, we started slagging of the Year 7's who were outside the hall waiting for Audition's to be part of the chorus line. When will they learn the evil of the drama department's musicals!!!
So yeah. School was good, the walk home wasn't.