Back from Michigan

Oct 22, 2006 21:07

We went up to Michigan again this weekend to see Sara's mom. It was... a rough trip. Physically, at least, her mom looks a lot better every time we see her -- she's getting her color and weight back, despite the chemo, which is a definite improvement. But on the mental side... she's having a hard time. That's an understatement, but it's also not surprising. I don't know how to expect someone to deal with being in the position she is in, but she just seems so... lost, directionless. Not doing anything at all. And I feel like we need to do something, somehow, to break her out of it. But I'm not sure what.
I'll probably muse more about this later (which may be more depressing)... I need some more time to mentally process things first. Sometimes, despite all my best efforts, I'm still slipping into denial about this whole thing. Not helpful.

I think I finally have all my research moving again after the grant proposal; I actually have meaningful simulations going, and I've picked up where I left off on most of the VMD programming. It's reassuring and satisfying to actually have my research normalized again, and it's good to actually feel productive -- even though a lot of work got done during the whole grant proposal, it all felt kind of meaningless since it wasn't part of my long term work (I guess that's silly; the grant money is certainly important for our long term work, but it still felt unproductive to be writing about what we're going to do instead of just doing it).

I also finally caved in and started working through Dive into Python in the car. I've been telling myself I ought to learn Python for awhile, since it is getting more and more popular in a lot of scientific circles, has a metric asston of library code available, and because we're thinking about switching VMD over from Tcl to Python for its embedded language (please please please please anything but Tcl); Kern recently tweaked my interest in trying out SciPy enough to give it a shot.
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