New years resolutions
As I sit mindlessly in front of the computer and write this entry, a few thoughts hover worryingly in the buzz of my brain. Mostly about my life and my future-- the New Year is always the best time to get pensive about these things. I am suddenly discontent for the second time with the thought of being an underperformer for the rest of my life. Not an underachiever, but an underperformer, given my potential and/or genetics. (Genetics, really.) I've been given, genetically, at least, everything I really need for success in life. (So has the majority of the rest of the world. Two eyes, two ears, a mouth, ten fingers and toes, etc.) But bear with me here- I am a quick learner and I noticed that I almost always succeed in whatever I put my heart into. The root cause of my problem is that I get bored of things easily and when I get bored I stop putting forth my effort in things.
Science is the field I plan on going into, because no other field interests me to the same extent. But I still don't feel the same passion that I desire from something I'm going to devote the majority of my life to. Another field I'm interested in: linguistics and design. But I know it's not feasible, despite a talent for it-- I would get bored very quickly studying grammar and structures. It's only the acquisition of new languages that I'm really interested in.
I don't have intentions of being monomaniacally focusing on academia. But I do want to use my full potential in school, while maintaining happy, healthy interests in other things.
Another thing I noticed: I expect things to come easily to me in life, because for the past 17 plus years, it has. For the most part. 17 plus years is a long time. In life, as in everything else, there is always an '"equal and opposite" component. Daoist theory, Newton's Third Law-- all statements of the same force that runs through the world. I'm generally a lucky person, but I can't expect things to be easy forever.
So, that being said, here are my New Year's Resolutions for 2005. It's halfway through the decade, and by the end of it, I will have graduated from college, entered either grad school or med school, hopefully be married to asif and have 10 of his children, yes we’ll be working on our little daem0n bunch. (Kidding about that last one. 3 is max :-p). I need to make sure, with the 5 years I have left in this decade, that I'm where I want to be by the time I start 2010.
1. Convince my parents to let me go to FAU
2. Pray more regularly
3. Improve reading and writing in Bangla.
4. Try not to forget Spanish.
5. Learn how to cook!!!!
6. Be nicer to sisters
7. Have a mutually satisfying, happy relationship with friends for as long as possible. Sometimes things die. When they die, they rot. And when they rot, they stink. And when they stink...
8. Cut down on impulse buys.
9. Sometimes it's better to just let go. Nice to know I realized this, finally. Always remember this
10. Learn how to be catty and stop letting people take advantage of me
11. Stop being so shy around people
12. Maintain current weight, minus about 10 pounds.
13. Stop looking at the mirrior everytime i spot one. This is possibly the hardest one. Yes, I am vain. ( well Sami, said everyone does that so I don't know)
14. Not break or lose any more things.
15. Have fun.
16. Go outside once in a while.
17. Cut down on the earring addiction.
18. Go to bed at a decent hour.
19. Do research in something useful.
20. Be worthy of this world.
21. Actually WATCH a movie with Asif.
22. Fix my posture
24. Look like a greek goddess (see below)
23. Exercise
Science is the field I plan on going into, because no other field interests me to the same extent. But I still don't feel the same passion that I desire from something I'm going to devote the majority of my life to. Another field I'm interested in: linguistics and design. But I know it's not feasible, despite a talent for it-- I would get bored very quickly studying grammar and structures. It's only the acquisition of new languages that I'm really interested in.
I don't have intentions of being monomaniacally focusing on academia. But I do want to use my full potential in school, while maintaining happy, healthy interests in other things.
Another thing I noticed: I expect things to come easily to me in life, because for the past 17 plus years, it has. For the most part. 17 plus years is a long time. In life, as in everything else, there is always an '"equal and opposite" component. Daoist theory, Newton's Third Law-- all statements of the same force that runs through the world. I'm generally a lucky person, but I can't expect things to be easy forever.
So, that being said, here are my New Year's Resolutions for 2005. It's halfway through the decade, and by the end of it, I will have graduated from college, entered either grad school or med school, hopefully be married to asif and have 10 of his children, yes we’ll be working on our little daem0n bunch. (Kidding about that last one. 3 is max :-p). I need to make sure, with the 5 years I have left in this decade, that I'm where I want to be by the time I start 2010.
1. Convince my parents to let me go to FAU
2. Pray more regularly
3. Improve reading and writing in Bangla.
4. Try not to forget Spanish.
5. Learn how to cook!!!!
6. Be nicer to sisters
7. Have a mutually satisfying, happy relationship with friends for as long as possible. Sometimes things die. When they die, they rot. And when they rot, they stink. And when they stink...
8. Cut down on impulse buys.
9. Sometimes it's better to just let go. Nice to know I realized this, finally. Always remember this
10. Learn how to be catty and stop letting people take advantage of me
11. Stop being so shy around people
12. Maintain current weight, minus about 10 pounds.
13. Stop looking at the mirrior everytime i spot one. This is possibly the hardest one. Yes, I am vain. ( well Sami, said everyone does that so I don't know)
14. Not break or lose any more things.
15. Have fun.
16. Go outside once in a while.
17. Cut down on the earring addiction.
18. Go to bed at a decent hour.
19. Do research in something useful.
20. Be worthy of this world.
21. Actually WATCH a movie with Asif.
22. Fix my posture
24. Look like a greek goddess (see below)
23. Exercise