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wow. i just saw jared's livejournal from almost 2 years ago salionus...when we got back together after having broken up. imagine this juxtaposed to a very awful phone call we just had in which i tell him i'm cancelling his phone line tonight and he accuses me of not paying him the half of the bill that he paid for when we get the credit. then i ask (out of concern) if he has a new phone...he just says "CLAUDIA!!! GOODBYE!" and clicks. i really fucking hate him...to the point where i just...i just. i don't even know. i just know that his stupid fucking addiction to video games really saved my life because i would have been stuck with this asshole of a man for the rest of my life.
don't think for a second that i would take him back, even if he was apologetic and came to his senses. i wouldn't. i had a taste of a different life...a life way fucking better than i was stuck in and i'm not going back.
i know that there are non-asshole guys out there. i went on 2 dates this past weekend with two really nice guys. i hung out with some really good friends. It felt great and for the first time in my life, i don't have to deal with all the relationship bullshit. if you think about it i've been in some kind of monogamous, long-term commitment back to back since i was 16. yuck. i didn't even have a chance to live.
now i'm making up for it...i just have to keep myself in check.
2 piercings is enough of a wild streak for a little while. i can't wait to get a tattoo. :O)
oh and my mom, sis, grandma and family from illinois are going on a cruise through western europe in a few months. that shit is gonna be CRAZY!! i'm so excited. it'll be my first time in europe :O) i have a feeling this trip stems from my mom's unbelievable happiness over that fact that i'm not with jared anymore. she really couldn't stand him. momma's always know best.
don't think for a second that i would take him back, even if he was apologetic and came to his senses. i wouldn't. i had a taste of a different life...a life way fucking better than i was stuck in and i'm not going back.
i know that there are non-asshole guys out there. i went on 2 dates this past weekend with two really nice guys. i hung out with some really good friends. It felt great and for the first time in my life, i don't have to deal with all the relationship bullshit. if you think about it i've been in some kind of monogamous, long-term commitment back to back since i was 16. yuck. i didn't even have a chance to live.
now i'm making up for it...i just have to keep myself in check.
2 piercings is enough of a wild streak for a little while. i can't wait to get a tattoo. :O)
oh and my mom, sis, grandma and family from illinois are going on a cruise through western europe in a few months. that shit is gonna be CRAZY!! i'm so excited. it'll be my first time in europe :O) i have a feeling this trip stems from my mom's unbelievable happiness over that fact that i'm not with jared anymore. she really couldn't stand him. momma's always know best.