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State was this weekend. The girls got ninth and the guys got last....so does this mean were actually better than the guys, wow i new we were better. hehe. There were a few times when i wish i didnt have to go through them...
*everytime i try to do something nice it gets thrown back in my face...
*the bus ride over there was uncomfortable so that made me so irritable...
*I found out on thursday that my grandma is in the hospital and shes in so much pain right now...
*the guys were being assholes to everyone...
*i got a fucking brick for a spirit gift, and alot of others girls didnt get crap...
*then some girl in our last game friday tried to murder me just because my finger got caught in her suit. Then the ref was being a jerk and didnt call anything. supposively he didnt notice it until i was already at the wall.
But honestly that was the scariest thing i will ever have to go through. No one can understand. Not even my mom. But she wasnt even there, so she doesnt know how tramatizing that is. It scared me so bad i dont even want to be around water anymore. I cant sleep because everytime i get to sleep i dream of what happened and i wake up gasping for breath and sweating. Plus i hate it when people try to throw that in my face because sometimes i can play a little dirty in the water, but theres a difference between playing dirty on my level and then trying to murder someone. I dont even think the coach can understand how bad it is for me to handle.
*everytime i try to do something nice it gets thrown back in my face...
*the bus ride over there was uncomfortable so that made me so irritable...
*I found out on thursday that my grandma is in the hospital and shes in so much pain right now...
*the guys were being assholes to everyone...
*i got a fucking brick for a spirit gift, and alot of others girls didnt get crap...
*then some girl in our last game friday tried to murder me just because my finger got caught in her suit. Then the ref was being a jerk and didnt call anything. supposively he didnt notice it until i was already at the wall.
But honestly that was the scariest thing i will ever have to go through. No one can understand. Not even my mom. But she wasnt even there, so she doesnt know how tramatizing that is. It scared me so bad i dont even want to be around water anymore. I cant sleep because everytime i get to sleep i dream of what happened and i wake up gasping for breath and sweating. Plus i hate it when people try to throw that in my face because sometimes i can play a little dirty in the water, but theres a difference between playing dirty on my level and then trying to murder someone. I dont even think the coach can understand how bad it is for me to handle.