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so it took over a year for my bedroom door to get busted down. was allot easier to ignore my brothers tantrums with it since he didn't do it as often and mostly ignored me. but apparently me havine aloevera in my room and not magically knowing he needed it means i no longer have a door and get yelled at for crap.. lovelly.
i really really suck at dealing with stuff like this. im having trouble from typing even because of my hands shaking so badly and am having trouble breathing.
i really wish i could pack up and go stay somewhere for a bit but even tho a coupe people probably wouldnt mind -me- staying i have hooley now as well.
ive really not been dealing well with my social phobia and depression since ive moved back here. theres no one who sees me and cares enough to notice or push me or even just mention when i stop doing things. then again even lee didn't do it to a point. like i tend to get it were bouts where i just wont think to go shower(and i pretty much use it as an excuse to myself mentally on why i cant go out, after all im all gross right?) i use to not be -as- bad then because at the very least if i feel gross then i probably am and i didn't want lee to be around me like that either. now theres no one to actually care either way so its pretty much up to my self motivation. which i suck at lately.
bah anyways... im gonna stop now.. im just rambling crap anyways..
i really really suck at dealing with stuff like this. im having trouble from typing even because of my hands shaking so badly and am having trouble breathing.
i really wish i could pack up and go stay somewhere for a bit but even tho a coupe people probably wouldnt mind -me- staying i have hooley now as well.
ive really not been dealing well with my social phobia and depression since ive moved back here. theres no one who sees me and cares enough to notice or push me or even just mention when i stop doing things. then again even lee didn't do it to a point. like i tend to get it were bouts where i just wont think to go shower(and i pretty much use it as an excuse to myself mentally on why i cant go out, after all im all gross right?) i use to not be -as- bad then because at the very least if i feel gross then i probably am and i didn't want lee to be around me like that either. now theres no one to actually care either way so its pretty much up to my self motivation. which i suck at lately.
bah anyways... im gonna stop now.. im just rambling crap anyways..