This Is My Heart Bleeding Before You, This Is Me Down On My Knees
Ah, another visit to Kio-chan I think is in order~ Yes yes~ It will be done.
I've finally started working on my spring lineup of clothing. It will be amazing, I can assure you. But then again, I'm the one making it, so how could it be anything else?
I surprised Hokuto-san with my visit this week, but all in all, I think it turned out pretty well. I enjoyed myself, at least. Perhaps we can do it again this Friday. It's been a very relaxing way to end the week, the past few weeks.
Mmm. My hair is getting long, even for my standards. Perhaps I should see if Spitfire-kun could fit me in...
A few weeks from now, I need to head back to Japan for a bit, to take care of things at the store back home. It'll be good to see Miine-chan and all my old regulars, if nothing else.
...I still wonder what possessed me to bring up that topic of conversation in the first place. It became painfully obvious to myself that even now, the topic of love is hard for me to talk about. I still....it makes me think too much of things that have passed, things I cannot change. It seemed to make Hokuto-san uncomfortable as well. I'll have to be more careful, in the future. I think we smoothed things over by the end...but i guess I won't really know until we meet up again. I hope we did. I enjoy his company too much to let something so stupid get in the way. I find myself looking forward to these little meetings more and more. I can;t tell yet whether this is good or bad.
Still...I hadn't felt so vulnerable in a long time. It's unnerving. I think I prefer keeping my mask up. It's easiest.
I'm not sure how I feel about going back to Japan. Part of me lives in the fear that I might run into him while I was there. What would I even say? Perhaps I'm thinking too much, I'm not sure.
I've finally started working on my spring lineup of clothing. It will be amazing, I can assure you. But then again, I'm the one making it, so how could it be anything else?
I surprised Hokuto-san with my visit this week, but all in all, I think it turned out pretty well. I enjoyed myself, at least. Perhaps we can do it again this Friday. It's been a very relaxing way to end the week, the past few weeks.
Mmm. My hair is getting long, even for my standards. Perhaps I should see if Spitfire-kun could fit me in...
A few weeks from now, I need to head back to Japan for a bit, to take care of things at the store back home. It'll be good to see Miine-chan and all my old regulars, if nothing else.
...I still wonder what possessed me to bring up that topic of conversation in the first place. It became painfully obvious to myself that even now, the topic of love is hard for me to talk about. I still....it makes me think too much of things that have passed, things I cannot change. It seemed to make Hokuto-san uncomfortable as well. I'll have to be more careful, in the future. I think we smoothed things over by the end...but i guess I won't really know until we meet up again. I hope we did. I enjoy his company too much to let something so stupid get in the way. I find myself looking forward to these little meetings more and more. I can;t tell yet whether this is good or bad.
Still...I hadn't felt so vulnerable in a long time. It's unnerving. I think I prefer keeping my mask up. It's easiest.
I'm not sure how I feel about going back to Japan. Part of me lives in the fear that I might run into him while I was there. What would I even say? Perhaps I'm thinking too much, I'm not sure.