Jul 15, 2004 00:40
I love this boy to death and at times it seems he is almost my life i care for him as if he were a brother. But at times he is more like our little prince that we must tend to. It is hard to break to him harsh feelings...but why keep them hidden? it will only do further damage, if we did wear happy masks all the time, we wouldn't really have a relationship with him..would we? it would only turn into a Pseudo Fantasy. I want to be honest with him, and hide nothing..he said "Secrets are good" But David..Not the kind that hurt and scar.
He needs to give his boi (nathan) a little talking. He ( nathan) appears to feel free in trampling david's closest of friends. And yet, david cheered on with him as they cornered Joi into a most embarrassing joke ( where she was forced to smile as to not cause argument) I suppose he was left in the dark on that one...but if joy would have blushed, or frowned, or perhaps even cried..what would he have done? Would he call off Nathan? I can not say. All I know is that, he had no right ( when just first meeting joI in the first place) to even state such a joke. Has he lost all sense and knowledge of courtesy, that he is 6 years older than joi( honestly..where is his maturity?), or has he even heard that, first impressions are the ones that count the most?
I had talked to him earlier, and he said he "Adored me" or something to that effect...so he pops online and we get to talking...I asked him if he loved david? He seemed to have got in a hissy..and I was being very humble and apologetic in my next few sentances....I only had heard that he was very affectionate and very attached to david..fromt hose who have seen him face to face and have had many conversations. David later tells me that allegedly, love is serious to him.(like I thought love wasn't in the first place) But instead he continued to drill me, he was rude beyond good reason. This man has no recollection of who we are peperhaps.
I suppose we mean something to david..and something goes a long way I am sure. But do we..if not mostly Joi, deserve a little respect from this mystery man that has only entered david's life in no more than two weeks.
David, you know there is a good place for you in my heart and as well as in joys ( mostly all of hers) I just wish you could advise your boi to lay off a bit...or rather, quite a lot.
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