May 21, 2005 21:55
Well Monday was my brother Jay's birthday, and today was my brother Aarons. So we had a party today at my brother Jays house. The weather was so nice today, so I threw on all baby blue today. Baby Blue shorts, baby blue tee and my blue shoes. Even had the blue sun glasses. Cause usually I could look right at the sun for a real long time and it wouldn't bother my eyes, but today it was bothering me. Anyway, I start off my day by going to the shelter. Recently, my cat Mia went missing. It's been three days. I'm convinced, she's dead. Oh well. =( She wasn't at the shelters, so I went to the party.
I got there, jumped on the trampoline. Did some flips...almost broke my neck. Rofl. It was funny. But yeah. People started to come, and the weather started to suck ass. The clouds came in from no where, and the wind started to pick up. Then it started to sprinkle. Anyway, it sucked. Ate food...opened gifts. My brother Aaron got a metal detector. Rofl. The thing is cool. I want one. >/! Well, the party just kept on going, and I just talked to my cousins and some of my brothers friends. It sucked cause they all had their chicks with them. It really gets depressing, cause it makes me think and I dun want to think about that anymore. I just want to pursue getting money. That is really all I care about anymore. MONEY. Money is the only thing that is gonna make me happy now. Speaking of money. This guy called me today and was like SHANE? I was like YEAH...WHO'S THIS? He said his name and he was from Arizona, and he is with this Pharmsutical company. He said if I remembered putting an application in over the computer...of course i didn't, but he asked if I had 1-5 hours free a week, and of course I did. So he said I could sell products over the computer or whatever. A lot of people bring in an extra G a month. So I was like Cool, I'll try it. But he said I needed some "resources." That'd be $200-500 to start things off. But ya' know what....Ima' do it. Cause I'm sick of sitting here thinking what if all the time. It makes me go insane.
But yes...MONEY. Gotta Love it. Money is great...it doesn't yell at you, it doesn't tell you what to do. It doesn't hurt you. It doesn't leave you for someone else. Like Tupac said...which will soon be featured in my future tattoo, "M.O.B" Money over Bitches. It's true really. My tattoo...Ima' have it on one of my arms. I'm going to have my Zodiac sign, which is Libra, which are Scales. On one side will be different types of money, Gold, Cash, Coins. On the other side, some chick holding on to the strings. Of course, the money side is going to be to the ground. Money>all.
The more I think about the future now, I can't wait to start up school. I just want to ace it...and just....get a hot ass job and make money. I don't care about anyone else. Everyone else can just get the fuck back. When I'm rollin' in money and be in the city I want to be in NYC, with my dope ass Bachelor Pad, then maybe I will be ready to scoop me up a chick. Nowdays, good girls are hard to find. Right now I'm in the process of losing more weight, like I have been. Ima' go lean and look alittle cute. My personality already rocks. Try and argue that with me. I will have the look and the money...that is all girls go for these days. So ima' give it to them. I thought I had a good girl, but she turned out foul. I just want to get one last hug from her, and after I come for that, I'll just drop out of her life, and let her live her happy-go-lucky life. She has it all really. Looks, brains, personality. Only thing wrong with her, was age. With age comes experiance I guess. So, while she is out there, gettin' what she wants, I'll be off, not even worrying about her anymore...like I do constantly now, getting mine. Not fair at all...
So I sit here with a buzz...thinking about shit. People these days...suck. Ah well, I jus' can't wait to get mine. =/ My current Song.------
Omarion
"I wish"
I shoulda, known I’d known I’d
Fall in love witcha game, guess I had it comin
Now I, can’t escape what I’m feelin inside, so ain’t no use of runnin
But oh no
I don’t know if you feel me the same, you gatta tell me somethin gotta tell me somethin
Cuz I don’t wanna be in love with a gurl who’s way to busy frontin
I wanna go back to when
To when you were just a friend
No complications
Never abracin when I see you baby
But it ain’t the same cuz now
I can’t resist ya smile
You got me buggin'
I’m caught up in lovin '
And I know it’s crazy but
I-I, I wish I didn’t love you
I-I, I wish I didn’t love you
I-I, I wish I didn’t love you
Like I do
Baby, sometimes
I try to act like it ain't what it is
But girl I gotta face it
Cause I
Luv u all of the time that we share
And I don't wanna waste it I won't even waste it babe
You got a hold on me that I can't change
So I won't even fight it I won't even fight it
Girl you keep a smile on my face
And I be so excited
I wanna go back to when
To when you were just a friend
No complications
Never abracin when I see you baby
But it ain’t the same cuz now
I can’t resist ya smile
You got me buggin'
I’m caught up in lovin '
And I know it’s crazy but
I-I, I wish I didn’t love you
I-I, I wish I didn’t love you
I-I, I wish I didn’t love you
Like I do
If lovin you is wrong
Then I ain't right
Cause I can't leave u alone
Babygirl, you my thing
My heart, your home
It's forever you and me
So never leave
Baby
I-I, I wish I didn’t love you
I-I, I wish I didn’t love you
I-I, I wish I didn’t love you
Like I ain't mad at u
Sometimes I wish I didn't love u but I'm glad I do
I ain't mad at u
Sometimes I wish I didn't love u but I'm glad I do