Collected thoughts yet scattered feelings.
Today was a booty ass day. I swear. First, I put in two hours for overtime. 11-1. It sucked of course. Had lunch with this chick who's been real cool. She's someone to add to my upcoming army of friends. But yeah, we went to Arbys. I had the chicken fingers. I don't really care for the roastbeef, or Arbys at that. But yeah after that, I came home...and waited till about 6 to go to the beach. Went to the harborfest again, this time with most of my family. It was OK, I mean i hate the summer. I can't wait for the snow to start falling. I love the snow, the way it looks, the way it falls. I love watching it. Same with rain. I love to be in the rain, and in the snow. Join me? Anyway...These people from work were going to go clubbing...so I was gonna go...but I ended up getting stuck at the beach. It was so aaasssss. All I could do is sit there and watch couples make out...hold hands walking along the beach and just...enjoying it. I coulda' had that....but somewhere along the lines I guess I messed it up somehow. I wasn't good enough, and she found someone better. Well, that's good for her, cause she's happy now. She doesn't talk to me anymore. No time for "friends" I guess, but if that makes her happy, hey...what's gonna stop ya. Ya know? I still question it though but that's another story. Moving on.
Yeah I was at the beach...walked around...and just sat..until the fireworks came. Chilled with my artist of a brother, the one who doesn't use his talents. What an ass. Talked about this July 4th weekend. Myself...either I'm going to the renascence festival with my brothers, or Ima' go to NYC. Not really sure why I would go to NYC, not like anyone wants me there anymore. MY main reason for going there nowadays has long been destroyed. So maybe I will just stay home. I don't know. I still need to call up this college and talk to an advisor. I really need to do something. God I wish I did better in Highschool. Why couldn't I be a nerd? Why couldn't I have been the kid everyone picked on..the brain who laters grows up to be the stud and the millionaire? It sucks. But yeah...SO now I sit here....wondering about my future. How drastic it changed from awhile back to now. Looks so dim. I sit and wonder about this world...on how stupid people are. Like on the news...that girl who is missing in Aruba. Those kids are fucking retards. Why the fuck would you harm some girl like that? I'd love to see them get hung on TV. What fools. People these days are so arrogant and stupid. I still sit here and wonder about HER...like what she doing? How she doing? Having fun? Need to talk? Can I have you? =/ I also just sit here and just stare out my window, AC blasting in my face...looking at the stars...wondering how things are going to be for me, and why some things turned out the way they did. Jesus..Brian Mcknight can be so depressing at times. -sigh- See-ya.
Yeah I was at the beach...walked around...and just sat..until the fireworks came. Chilled with my artist of a brother, the one who doesn't use his talents. What an ass. Talked about this July 4th weekend. Myself...either I'm going to the renascence festival with my brothers, or Ima' go to NYC. Not really sure why I would go to NYC, not like anyone wants me there anymore. MY main reason for going there nowadays has long been destroyed. So maybe I will just stay home. I don't know. I still need to call up this college and talk to an advisor. I really need to do something. God I wish I did better in Highschool. Why couldn't I be a nerd? Why couldn't I have been the kid everyone picked on..the brain who laters grows up to be the stud and the millionaire? It sucks. But yeah...SO now I sit here....wondering about my future. How drastic it changed from awhile back to now. Looks so dim. I sit and wonder about this world...on how stupid people are. Like on the news...that girl who is missing in Aruba. Those kids are fucking retards. Why the fuck would you harm some girl like that? I'd love to see them get hung on TV. What fools. People these days are so arrogant and stupid. I still sit here and wonder about HER...like what she doing? How she doing? Having fun? Need to talk? Can I have you? =/ I also just sit here and just stare out my window, AC blasting in my face...looking at the stars...wondering how things are going to be for me, and why some things turned out the way they did. Jesus..Brian Mcknight can be so depressing at times. -sigh- See-ya.