The Cure
... and psychedelic mushrooms...
quite possibly the best idea I ever had. Well, in retrospect, anyway. I suppose everything could have gone horribly wrong. An enormous freakout, an arrest before the show (one after I wouldn't have cared), etc. But risk, reward. I cried at one point thinking it was the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen. Cheesy, it sounds, but certainly felt it at the time. I guess sentimentally I think seeing my brother sleeping in the incubator after he'd turned from purple to fleshy color when I was 10 was probably more beautiful. But... the colors, the music, the feel of this experience. I'm sure it would've been amazing even without the drugs, but I don't regret taking them.
I think I figured out some things about myself on psychedelics too, though I'd probably have to hypothesis test a bit to fully support them. 1) Although my brain does get a bit numb relative to my normal state, I don't seem to really lose my ability to problem solve or my mental acuity. Examples: Jenna asked if a picture on my phone was one I took and I found it quite funny considering the quality of the picture, as cell phones don't really take pictures of that caliber. I remembered that her phone didn't receive texts when she went to the bathroom so knew I had to call her to get ahold of her. She kept saying she wanted to go to sleep and I kept having to remind her we were in Chicago and still had to drive home, but that I couldn't drive until I stopped tripping. I also remembered that the length of the experience on shrooms after not eating would probably be roughly equal to the experience after eating since Amanda and I had experiences that lasted equal lengths but started at different times when one of us ate and the other did not. 2) I don't tend to freak out even by the strangest visual things. Robert Smith is the weirdest looking guy to begin with. At one point his face kept morphing into this creepy demonlike figure. At another point Jenna's skin took on this zombie-like coloring. I just thought... eh, ya took shrooms and that will happen at times. And I would wait for it to return to normal. I just seem to always remember that I'm on drugs and what I'm seeing/feeling is a side effect of that. Also, probably helps that I wasn't raised to be afraid of demons.
Anyway... it was the best.concert.ever. So glad I did it and that all the other people who had a chance to come with me didn't get to go so that it worked out just as it was supposed to.
quite possibly the best idea I ever had. Well, in retrospect, anyway. I suppose everything could have gone horribly wrong. An enormous freakout, an arrest before the show (one after I wouldn't have cared), etc. But risk, reward. I cried at one point thinking it was the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen. Cheesy, it sounds, but certainly felt it at the time. I guess sentimentally I think seeing my brother sleeping in the incubator after he'd turned from purple to fleshy color when I was 10 was probably more beautiful. But... the colors, the music, the feel of this experience. I'm sure it would've been amazing even without the drugs, but I don't regret taking them.
I think I figured out some things about myself on psychedelics too, though I'd probably have to hypothesis test a bit to fully support them. 1) Although my brain does get a bit numb relative to my normal state, I don't seem to really lose my ability to problem solve or my mental acuity. Examples: Jenna asked if a picture on my phone was one I took and I found it quite funny considering the quality of the picture, as cell phones don't really take pictures of that caliber. I remembered that her phone didn't receive texts when she went to the bathroom so knew I had to call her to get ahold of her. She kept saying she wanted to go to sleep and I kept having to remind her we were in Chicago and still had to drive home, but that I couldn't drive until I stopped tripping. I also remembered that the length of the experience on shrooms after not eating would probably be roughly equal to the experience after eating since Amanda and I had experiences that lasted equal lengths but started at different times when one of us ate and the other did not. 2) I don't tend to freak out even by the strangest visual things. Robert Smith is the weirdest looking guy to begin with. At one point his face kept morphing into this creepy demonlike figure. At another point Jenna's skin took on this zombie-like coloring. I just thought... eh, ya took shrooms and that will happen at times. And I would wait for it to return to normal. I just seem to always remember that I'm on drugs and what I'm seeing/feeling is a side effect of that. Also, probably helps that I wasn't raised to be afraid of demons.
Anyway... it was the best.concert.ever. So glad I did it and that all the other people who had a chance to come with me didn't get to go so that it worked out just as it was supposed to.