a derp a derp.
Your Existing Situation
"Inclined to choose luxurious things, which are gratifying to the senses. Turned off by things which are tacky and tasteless."
Your Stress Sources
"Feels empty and isolated from others and wishes to overcome this feeling. Believes life has more to offer her than what she was experienced thus far, and doesn't want to miss out on anything. She pursues all her goals and dreams, fearful that any missed opportunity will cause her to miss out on even more. Quickly becomes an expert in any field she pursues and can sometimes come off as overbearing and nosy."
Your Restrained Characteristics
Current events leave her feeling forced into compromise in order to avoid being cut off from affection or future cooperation.
Giving more than she is getting back and feels misunderstood and unappreciated. Feels she is being forced into compromising and even her close relationships leave her feeling emotionally distant.
Your Desired Objective
"Highly optimistic and outgoing personality. Loves to learn new and exciting things, and craves new interests. Looking for a well-rounded life full of success and new experiences. Does not allow herself to be overcome with negative thoughts or self-doubt. Takes life head on, with enthusiasm. "
Your Actual Problem
Is afraid she will be held back from obtaining the things she wants leading her to act out with a hectic intensity.
Your Actual Problem #2
"Fights resistance or limitations, and insists she is free to develop in her own way. Rewarded by accomplishing things on her own, with little to no help from others."
pretty much true, although i've been feeling pretty pleased with the way things have been going. school is actually interesting, and not just intermittently with loads of bullshit mixed in (aka venice). i finally feel like i'm in the proper forum in which to learn, not the sort of drowning feeling i got in high school, where anything cool i learned/beautiful i saw was pretty much dashed out immediately by how shitty people/things can be. maybe my perspective has just changed. pursuing art/other pretty things has left me feeling liberated at not choosing a "sensible" major, and also worried. but i figure whatever i end up doing isn't really as important as how i live; but meh, i think they might go hand-in-hand. i just daydream about living the life of some sort of renaissance man or gypsy, and how silly these ideas sound in the contemps. ah, fuck it. i want to live the life of a bird, moving around and being free, finding sheet through escaping. ah, i can never find a median between sounding sappy as shit and cynical as hell. well i guess i covered both in this.