weeping while writing
i feel so lost; i dont know how else to put it. parcially deceived maybe? but im not trying to lay any blame. arg.
the deal is that my boy said a month or so that he wasnt going to be going off to any trade skools for a long while; and even tho i was sorta shaky of the whole idea, i felt comforted to hear that he wasnt going to be going far anytime soon.
then, a week or so ago, i went with him and his family to meet with a UTI rep which was cool and all, tho one of the points that he made was that time is money; implying that if mike doesnt do their courses sooner rather then later, job pay, as well as demand, may be lower in the longer run. and i understand this. and im all for him to pursue this trade that makes him happy and coincidently pays good.
i dont quite know where im going with this...
as things are progressing, its pretty clear that hes going to the uti in sacramento...
...i suppose it could be worse, like he could go to another campus in another state; so i am very very very glad that hes soo close to home
...but even at that, its not like hes at ssu, hes like a day trip away, so that leaves me to wonder of all that will be missed between us; anniversaries, family and friend events, just the simplisity of being able to hold him, him being able to comfort me when something goes wrong, and so much more - thoes simple things that mean the world to me...
im trying not to be selfish about this; im trying to hold on to the reasoing that its all for the good of his future
but im stuck on that lill promise he said that he probably wont be going anywhere far for a while; i dont want to give it up
and new development that may dis concern uti, but instead: peterbuilt
the deal is that my boy said a month or so that he wasnt going to be going off to any trade skools for a long while; and even tho i was sorta shaky of the whole idea, i felt comforted to hear that he wasnt going to be going far anytime soon.
then, a week or so ago, i went with him and his family to meet with a UTI rep which was cool and all, tho one of the points that he made was that time is money; implying that if mike doesnt do their courses sooner rather then later, job pay, as well as demand, may be lower in the longer run. and i understand this. and im all for him to pursue this trade that makes him happy and coincidently pays good.
i dont quite know where im going with this...
as things are progressing, its pretty clear that hes going to the uti in sacramento...
...i suppose it could be worse, like he could go to another campus in another state; so i am very very very glad that hes soo close to home
...but even at that, its not like hes at ssu, hes like a day trip away, so that leaves me to wonder of all that will be missed between us; anniversaries, family and friend events, just the simplisity of being able to hold him, him being able to comfort me when something goes wrong, and so much more - thoes simple things that mean the world to me...
im trying not to be selfish about this; im trying to hold on to the reasoing that its all for the good of his future
but im stuck on that lill promise he said that he probably wont be going anywhere far for a while; i dont want to give it up
and new development that may dis concern uti, but instead: peterbuilt