Long possibly pointless theory
So...
there's this guy that I thought I would never really have class with again after the whole middle school thing because I was going into highschool kinda like leaving all that stuff behind and for 2 years it was so. Until one year I had homeroom with him but that doesn't really count...
what counts is an actual class...
so this sememster first period I have a class with him ... and I have discovered I am still the same girl I was atleast 3-4 years ago...
I don't know weither to be happy or upset about this theory
and it's driving me insane because music fills my brain with thoughts that should not even be in the brainstorming process
because once they are there I am not myself around that person
it's like I build a wall
or a defensive mechanism...
probably the latter c/:
I know something that I shouldn't though and it makes me want to get to know him as more than just a classmate...
but he is soooo
not personal (?)
I remember something about him liking playboy in middleschool...yeah
and that is just basically saying he is a playa...lol
not for me
and like how he would always ask me out, I'd say yes, and that is all that would happen
and then around the end of the year he said his friend should go with me
and so I figured it wasn't something he actually wanted
and I could've cared less after that
but now
it's as if we are starting over
pretending we know eachother but with no specific memories
it's awkward, uncomfortable, and yet I want someone that I have known for more than a year...I don't want some random guy I met 2 days ago
but he still acts the same...
:(
so is he still a "playa"?
I'm screwed either way because I can't get rid of love songs...
there's this guy that I thought I would never really have class with again after the whole middle school thing because I was going into highschool kinda like leaving all that stuff behind and for 2 years it was so. Until one year I had homeroom with him but that doesn't really count...
what counts is an actual class...
so this sememster first period I have a class with him ... and I have discovered I am still the same girl I was atleast 3-4 years ago...
I don't know weither to be happy or upset about this theory
and it's driving me insane because music fills my brain with thoughts that should not even be in the brainstorming process
because once they are there I am not myself around that person
it's like I build a wall
or a defensive mechanism...
probably the latter c/:
I know something that I shouldn't though and it makes me want to get to know him as more than just a classmate...
but he is soooo
not personal (?)
I remember something about him liking playboy in middleschool...yeah
and that is just basically saying he is a playa...lol
not for me
and like how he would always ask me out, I'd say yes, and that is all that would happen
and then around the end of the year he said his friend should go with me
and so I figured it wasn't something he actually wanted
and I could've cared less after that
but now
it's as if we are starting over
pretending we know eachother but with no specific memories
it's awkward, uncomfortable, and yet I want someone that I have known for more than a year...I don't want some random guy I met 2 days ago
but he still acts the same...
:(
so is he still a "playa"?
I'm screwed either way because I can't get rid of love songs...