Heeee this was so loooong (wheee!) My response is so rambly it will have to go in two comments!
YAY for a great year and for sharing and hilights and life. :) *hugs back*
Thank you so much. Such kind words. I’m so glad to hear it’s your favourite, mostly because it’s YOURS. But partly because I just don’t feel all that confident about it. I didn’t *live* that one. It fought me every step of the way and we just never became friends. It was happy to be out of my life when I finished and now we don’t speak.
“A good thing, in a way that writing angst because angst is a stretch yet it's not fun to write is not. If that makes sense.” --Um. It doesn’t. Are you sure you just don’t feel like writing angst isn’t ‘worth’ the stretch because you don’t enjoy reading the outcome? Or maybe you mean writing angst can be painful whereas writing a new character is merely difficult? Cuz you used the word ‘fun’ and I gotta tells ya - I know I said it was my fave but that was due to pride. Nothing about it was ‘fun’. …And that’s exactly why I’m proud lol
“Did you think 'joining' the fandom would make you more eager to write in general, and for TWD in particular? Or did you think that just doing something different would make you want to write more in general? Or both?” --I’d say both. I thought joining fandom would make me want to write more TWD (hence just a higher number of stories). And I thought exploring a new fandom and getting into characters’ heads and the circumstances of their ‘verse would give me new inspiration and good writing ideas, and that those things would renew that just joy-of-writing feeling in general. Those were my expectations because that’s what happened when I joined my last fandom. I sort of got to know a few other people who were writing in the fandom, we’d chat about the characters and writing in general, we were all very excited about our fandom, and also about being writers. That drew me in and gave me all kinds of ideas to write and made it fun/addictive and I literally couldn’t stop writing things in my head all day. Even if they were for F&F fandom. I was engaged. Both in my new fandom, and with writing anything at all. (and I know I wouldn’t have stuck around DH fandom as long as I did if it weren’t for you! muah)
We’ve talked before about how lj may be changing and how people use AO3 a lot more for fic now, and how that affects commenting, and maybe it’s just a side effect of that, but the comms for TWD don’t at all seem the same as h4b where it’s a ‘community’. There’s not a lot of discussion happening. The closest I got to chatting was with the person who played my ‘name the pet zombies’ game - she wasn’t a writer, and we never spoke after she won her banner lol
“One of the things that I think helped you to see Daryl 'better' was seeing him from Glenn's POV” --Yes I agree. And it wasn’t unexpected. This happened to me with John and Matt too. (So I guess I was hoping it’d happen again) I still maintain they’re not ‘pretty’ actors. I had to stand back and think why someone would be attracted to these people, whereas it was very easy for me to write about what made the uberpretty F&F cast hot
“There's another TWD fic lurking unfinished on your hd. Granted it's one that was started for the auction, but still. Obviously the muse is there, thinking about them.” --This might be some otp wishful thinking on your part, m’dear, sorry. The half-started story is there precisely because I sold a story at auction and had to come up with *something*. It is STILL there because the muse ISN’T. Or it’d be done by now. Sorry.
“Is it lack of comments/interaction that makes you not inclined to write more, whether in TWD fandom or any fandom?” --I think interaction is part of what ‘draws me in’ as I put it. And it applies to any fandom. I thought maybe part of it was ‘newness’ like you said about exploring and maybe it was, but for some reason this time that part didn’t seem to have an effect. A big part of it is just getting the ideas. When I get ideas I think are good, and produce stories I think are good, I feel like I’m a good writer and should write more - in that fandom or otherwise. And I just haven’t had that feeling about my writing for a while. That was what I meant about lacking passion.
And it’s not clear to me whether that’s because of not finding a community to share with or because of not connecting with the canon/characters. I think part of it is that the experience just wasn’t ‘fun’ like I said. I never connected with the story, I never once felt warm/fuzzy or joyful writing it. All of the factors probably came into play as to why I haven’t written TWD again.
“I would have given "sexiest story/sexiest moment" to Tunnel o' Love. Because -- and you know how I am with the whole JEEEEZUS THEY DIDN'T DO ANYTHING DURING THE MOVIE OMG -- it felt real.” --WOW thank you. This means so much because that was exactly my fear when I was writing it cuz I THINK THAT TOO. Honestly…there *is* something that feels in-character about John going “oh for fuck’s sake, if it takes an orgasm for you to stop mooning over me and GET ON BOARD, then I can do that.” But…it’s also extremely UNREALISTIC in that people don’t DO that. But I thought it was hilarious and kinda sexy and sorta wanted to see if I could make the fantasy work on ‘paper’. And according to you, I did. So thank you. So so much.
“Someday I will read Story of My Life” --When that day comes, you’ll think ‘that wasn’t all that bad.’ And you’ll be so caught up in how anticlimactic it was, you won’t remember what actually happened in the story. LOL
My response is so rambly it will have to go in two comments!
YAY for a great year and for sharing and hilights and life. :) *hugs back*
Thank you so much. Such kind words. I’m so glad to hear it’s your favourite, mostly because it’s YOURS. But partly because I just don’t feel all that confident about it. I didn’t *live* that one. It fought me every step of the way and we just never became friends. It was happy to be out of my life when I finished and now we don’t speak.
“A good thing, in a way that writing angst because angst is a stretch yet it's not fun to write is not. If that makes sense.”
--Um. It doesn’t. Are you sure you just don’t feel like writing angst isn’t ‘worth’ the stretch because you don’t enjoy reading the outcome?
Or maybe you mean writing angst can be painful whereas writing a new character is merely difficult? Cuz you used the word ‘fun’ and I gotta tells ya - I know I said it was my fave but that was due to pride. Nothing about it was ‘fun’. …And that’s exactly why I’m proud lol
“Did you think 'joining' the fandom would make you more eager to write in general, and for TWD in particular? Or did you think that just doing something different would make you want to write more in general? Or both?”
--I’d say both. I thought joining fandom would make me want to write more TWD (hence just a higher number of stories).
And I thought exploring a new fandom and getting into characters’ heads and the circumstances of their ‘verse would give me new inspiration and good writing ideas, and that those things would renew that just joy-of-writing feeling in general. Those were my expectations because that’s what happened when I joined my last fandom. I sort of got to know a few other people who were writing in the fandom, we’d chat about the characters and writing in general, we were all very excited about our fandom, and also about being writers. That drew me in and gave me all kinds of ideas to write and made it fun/addictive and I literally couldn’t stop writing things in my head all day. Even if they were for F&F fandom. I was engaged. Both in my new fandom, and with writing anything at all. (and I know I wouldn’t have stuck around DH fandom as long as I did if it weren’t for you! muah)
We’ve talked before about how lj may be changing and how people use AO3 a lot more for fic now, and how that affects commenting, and maybe it’s just a side effect of that, but the comms for TWD don’t at all seem the same as h4b where it’s a ‘community’. There’s not a lot of discussion happening. The closest I got to chatting was with the person who played my ‘name the pet zombies’ game - she wasn’t a writer, and we never spoke after she won her banner lol
“One of the things that I think helped you to see Daryl 'better' was seeing him from Glenn's POV”
--Yes I agree. And it wasn’t unexpected. This happened to me with John and Matt too. (So I guess I was hoping it’d happen again) I still maintain they’re not ‘pretty’ actors. I had to stand back and think why someone would be attracted to these people, whereas it was very easy for me to write about what made the uberpretty F&F cast hot
“There's another TWD fic lurking unfinished on your hd. Granted it's one that was started for the auction, but still. Obviously the muse is there, thinking about them.”
--This might be some otp wishful thinking on your part, m’dear, sorry. The half-started story is there precisely because I sold a story at auction and had to come up with *something*. It is STILL there because the muse ISN’T. Or it’d be done by now. Sorry.
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--I think interaction is part of what ‘draws me in’ as I put it. And it applies to any fandom. I thought maybe part of it was ‘newness’ like you said about exploring and maybe it was, but for some reason this time that part didn’t seem to have an effect. A big part of it is just getting the ideas. When I get ideas I think are good, and produce stories I think are good, I feel like I’m a good writer and should write more - in that fandom or otherwise. And I just haven’t had that feeling about my writing for a while. That was what I meant about lacking passion.
And it’s not clear to me whether that’s because of not finding a community to share with or because of not connecting with the canon/characters. I think part of it is that the experience just wasn’t ‘fun’ like I said. I never connected with the story, I never once felt warm/fuzzy or joyful writing it. All of the factors probably came into play as to why I haven’t written TWD again.
“I would have given "sexiest story/sexiest moment" to Tunnel o' Love. Because -- and you know how I am with the whole JEEEEZUS THEY DIDN'T DO ANYTHING DURING THE MOVIE OMG -- it felt real.”
--WOW thank you. This means so much because that was exactly my fear when I was writing it cuz I THINK THAT TOO. Honestly…there *is* something that feels in-character about John going “oh for fuck’s sake, if it takes an orgasm for you to stop mooning over me and GET ON BOARD, then I can do that.” But…it’s also extremely UNREALISTIC in that people don’t DO that. But I thought it was hilarious and kinda sexy and sorta wanted to see if I could make the fantasy work on ‘paper’. And according to you, I did. So thank you. So so much.
“Someday I will read Story of My Life”
--When that day comes, you’ll think ‘that wasn’t all that bad.’ And you’ll be so caught up in how anticlimactic it was, you won’t remember what actually happened in the story. LOL
BANTERED.
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