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Even though I'm honestly happy being single, I feel weird at holidays when I'm by myself and other people aren't. I got a ride home from my best friend today (well, yesterday...monday) because she was buying a tv and I told her if she bought a gift card I'd purchase it for her so she could get a discount. So she asks me what I'm doing tonight (monday night) after I had purchased the tv and I say nothing. And she says that she'll come back around the time I get off and pick up the tv and give me a ride home.
Is it bad that part of me thought she was going to want to hang out? Was that an inference I wasn't supposed to get? Is it okay for me to feel disappointed that she didn't want to hang out with me and instead spent the night watching movies with her new boyfriend?
She called me at midnight to wish me happy new year and asked me if I could hear the fire works that were going off and said "I don't know if you can see them, but they're really pretty." I told her that I wasn't outside and she was like "Aw why not? Why do you sound sad?" I had already told her earlier that I wasn't even sure I would be awake at midnight so I just kind of brushed it off and blamed it on work and being stressed out about that. But I'm really bummed out that I spent another new years alone. In my house. With my mother. And the fact that that my best friend didn't ask me if I wanted to do anything on new years. Again.
Is it bad that part of me thought she was going to want to hang out? Was that an inference I wasn't supposed to get? Is it okay for me to feel disappointed that she didn't want to hang out with me and instead spent the night watching movies with her new boyfriend?
She called me at midnight to wish me happy new year and asked me if I could hear the fire works that were going off and said "I don't know if you can see them, but they're really pretty." I told her that I wasn't outside and she was like "Aw why not? Why do you sound sad?" I had already told her earlier that I wasn't even sure I would be awake at midnight so I just kind of brushed it off and blamed it on work and being stressed out about that. But I'm really bummed out that I spent another new years alone. In my house. With my mother. And the fact that that my best friend didn't ask me if I wanted to do anything on new years. Again.