SO NOT COOL ANYMORE, JUST--AUGH!!
I'm suffering from a horrible skin condition/allergic reaction/leprosy/stage one zombification (think cancer, but a more flesh eating desire causing thing).
I got this this on my face around four days ago. It makes me feel tired and crappy, and I feel like hiding my face from the world now. At first it was cool to go around jokingly calling it leprosy, or what not, but now it's making me feel really horrible self-esteem wise. Somehow I assumed this was a very quick and temporary condition, but it's turning out to be much longer lasting. I thought it would be like the last time I got hives but that isn't the case this time. I'm 100% ugly now. Before I was only 40% ugly and that's padded ego speaking, but now I'm positive no one will want to date me. I want to cry. Not that I really cared before, but I always thought if I wanted a boyfriend, I could just find some ugly nerd kid, but now, I'm the ugly nerd kid, and I feel fat on top of it. I'm voluptuous, I know that, but I've worn nothing but jeans and t-shirts and my hair in this ugly bun for several days now, and if I was ranked, I'm sure my ranking would be slipping. I JUST WANT TO BE PASSABLY NORMAL. NOT 100% NORMAL JUST NORMAL ENOUGH TO GET BY. But how? When my face looks like I'm turning into a Zombie. I actually thought this would be cool if this weekend was the zombie walk. But that's a month from now. So I'm screwed. And I wanted to do a photo shoot for a cosplay with a friend this weekend.
My life in it's sum total of all it's parts, really sucks right now. Only thing on my side right now is my hair still has yet to suck that bad.
But my mom was kind enough to support my self-esteem building activity of helping me take pictures of myself in a pretty dress. I thought it was nice of her. I love my mom some days.
I got this this on my face around four days ago. It makes me feel tired and crappy, and I feel like hiding my face from the world now. At first it was cool to go around jokingly calling it leprosy, or what not, but now it's making me feel really horrible self-esteem wise. Somehow I assumed this was a very quick and temporary condition, but it's turning out to be much longer lasting. I thought it would be like the last time I got hives but that isn't the case this time. I'm 100% ugly now. Before I was only 40% ugly and that's padded ego speaking, but now I'm positive no one will want to date me. I want to cry. Not that I really cared before, but I always thought if I wanted a boyfriend, I could just find some ugly nerd kid, but now, I'm the ugly nerd kid, and I feel fat on top of it. I'm voluptuous, I know that, but I've worn nothing but jeans and t-shirts and my hair in this ugly bun for several days now, and if I was ranked, I'm sure my ranking would be slipping. I JUST WANT TO BE PASSABLY NORMAL. NOT 100% NORMAL JUST NORMAL ENOUGH TO GET BY. But how? When my face looks like I'm turning into a Zombie. I actually thought this would be cool if this weekend was the zombie walk. But that's a month from now. So I'm screwed. And I wanted to do a photo shoot for a cosplay with a friend this weekend.
My life in it's sum total of all it's parts, really sucks right now. Only thing on my side right now is my hair still has yet to suck that bad.
But my mom was kind enough to support my self-esteem building activity of helping me take pictures of myself in a pretty dress. I thought it was nice of her. I love my mom some days.