→ cheese with that whine?
I was hoping that after a night of sleep (which was horrible sleep, go figure) that I might snap out of this little funk that I'm in and it doesn't appear to be so. I'm still feeling a little paranoid and out of my right - well, I don't what to say 'mind' because that's not it - I just don't feel like I'm 'me' right now, if that makes any sense. So if I'm quiet/mopey/short worded today, I suppose that might be why. Brill.
You know, now that I think about it, most of the personality tests/quizes I've ever taken have constantly put me above at least a 70% mark of being borderline/paranoid in 'disorders'. Naturally, I take all of that with a grain of salt because that's internet diagnosing as well as self diagnosing and I believe in neither, but it does make me kind of go 'huh' at it. I don't think I'm mentally unstable, but I do think that I'm severely insecure and that's probably what makes me feel like this from time to time.
I don't even know what I'm talking about or why right now, to be honest. ._.
I don't think I'm going to call Kay today, either. My chest tightens and I get to where it's funky to breathe because I'm calling a stranger's house and it's nerve wracking. I wonder if other people get like that or if it's just some stupid reaction of mine? Then again it would be pretty, I don't know - selfish? To think that I'm the only person who has something like that happen to them. Whatever.
I feel like all my posting is bitching, whining and complaining, so I think I'll just stop here.
You know, now that I think about it, most of the personality tests/quizes I've ever taken have constantly put me above at least a 70% mark of being borderline/paranoid in 'disorders'. Naturally, I take all of that with a grain of salt because that's internet diagnosing as well as self diagnosing and I believe in neither, but it does make me kind of go 'huh' at it. I don't think I'm mentally unstable, but I do think that I'm severely insecure and that's probably what makes me feel like this from time to time.
I don't even know what I'm talking about or why right now, to be honest. ._.
I don't think I'm going to call Kay today, either. My chest tightens and I get to where it's funky to breathe because I'm calling a stranger's house and it's nerve wracking. I wonder if other people get like that or if it's just some stupid reaction of mine? Then again it would be pretty, I don't know - selfish? To think that I'm the only person who has something like that happen to them. Whatever.
I feel like all my posting is bitching, whining and complaining, so I think I'll just stop here.