→ you don't know how long i have waited

[perseverance]

I can't even think of "real" updates anymore, which is sad.

I just know that I want to cry.
All the time.

I feel like I have epic battles with myself throughout the day, every day, to tell myself not to cry. I don't even really know why I want to cry, I just do. An overwhelming feeling of despair will suddenly wash over me and I just can't take it. But I don't want to just sit here and cry all day so I just don't let myself. What's the point?

I don't even know where I'm going with this.
So I guess I'm done.