∮ truth is pain i feel for you no more
Maybe I should buy a dream book. Because then, I wouldn't be so confused over what the hell this dream means. I'm not one for normally sharing my sleepytime thoughts, but this is getting annoying. For the past week or so I've had the exact same dream and it's really weird. It's the first time in a long while I've actually wanted to know what a dream of mine means, since usually I either don't remember them or just really don't want to know.
I'm not sure if this is the beginning of the dream, or not. It's just when it starts getting vivid enough for my to remember it. Apparently, I'm in school and with me is Jeremy, Loriann, Cody, some very flamboyantly homosexual young man and - I shit you not - a giant crab. Loriann and Cody are sitting across from me, the other guy is wandering around and the giant crab is in a huge fish tank that apparently moves around with it or something. We're in study hall, because everyone around us is reading a book and highlighting stuff but everywhere you look everyone is reading the same book, and if you look on the shelves in the room that same book is the only thing they offer. And I think, it's title is something along the lines of "Every Question Ever Asked in the History of Ever". ..Or something similar. So I open the book and take a look inside and I realize that it really is just a bunch of questions on each line of the pages but.. There's no answers to them which means that everyone is highlighting the questions. Oh and along with the book there's a worksheet for us to work on, but I don't really know what the hell is written on that, so. I'm looking at the book and wondering why no one is bothered that there aren't any answers. While I'm muttering about it to myself, Jeremy shows up. He's also reading the giant book of questions. For some reason, I look at him and ask him why he isn't more confused that there's no answers to the questions. And I guess Jeremy is a Zen Master in my dream or something, because every question I ask him he replies with another question. Eventually, that drives me nuts and I start bickering with him (bickering on my end, Zen on his). After a while, he just smiles, pats me on the head, says something like "Isn't that cute?" and then leaves.
Then out of no where we are no longer in study hall but the cafeteria and the books are replaced with food. Loriann and Cody are talking amongst themselves and the other guy is talking to me about something but I'm not really paying any attention to it since I'm still staring at the giant book of questions trying to figure out what the hell the point of it is. Loriann and Cody randomly decide to go shopping or.. I don't know, something. They tell me they're going and they leave. To my right is the giant crab person, who is apparently a girl because speaks (yes, speaks) in a very feminine tone and calls herself a girl from time to time. I guess she and I are closer friends or something. Out of the blue, the other guy says he's going to go get some juice or something and then leaves. So the crab keeps talking to me and I keep half paying attention to her. Suddenly, she just disappears in her tank. She like.. Lowers herself to the bottom of it and is gone which is apparently something normal since I'm not too bothered with it and I keep prodding at the big book of questions. Something floats up from the tank and I think it's the crab, so I turn and look and it's not. It's a huge bubble with a giant spider in it. Like.. The size of my hand (palm + fingers/thumb). Soon, it's joined with a fucking crapload of the bubbles with spiders in them, so much that the whole top half of the huge tank is covered with them. I'm scared of spiders, so I go into a panic attack of sorts. Freaking out, I get up and run to the door of the cafeteria to leave just when the crab is coming back up and tries to tell me she was going to eat the spiders. I'm still scared, so I still leave.
Outside of the cafeteria, the walls of the halls are covered with the same sized spiders but they're not in bubbles this time. And I mean -covered-. You cannot see the walls. Because I'm scared, I just fall down to the floor and start crying and freaking out and panicking when lo and behold, Jeremy shows up! He grabs my hand and tells me he'll bring me somewhere safe, so dragging me along the halls covered in spiders he eventually gets me into a stairwell and we run down to the lower level and go into the halls there. And - shock! - more spiders! Jeremy finds a door and opens it and we go inside. Shockingly, there are no spiders in the room. It's a small, weird little classroom and I sit down near the middle of the room. Jeremy is looking around and then tells me that panic attacks shouldn't go unchecked, so he says he's going to go find a nurse and he leaves to do so. I feel like I'm probably safe since there's no spiders in here, and I just sit tight. Behind me, though, a fucking gigantic spider that's probably as tall as I am lowers and just as I notice it's there I'm too late to move and it bites me. And then I die.
._. What. The. Hell.
I really need to go and get a dream book.
Apart from that, I guess I don't really have all that much to talk about.
I'm not sure if this is the beginning of the dream, or not. It's just when it starts getting vivid enough for my to remember it. Apparently, I'm in school and with me is Jeremy, Loriann, Cody, some very flamboyantly homosexual young man and - I shit you not - a giant crab. Loriann and Cody are sitting across from me, the other guy is wandering around and the giant crab is in a huge fish tank that apparently moves around with it or something. We're in study hall, because everyone around us is reading a book and highlighting stuff but everywhere you look everyone is reading the same book, and if you look on the shelves in the room that same book is the only thing they offer. And I think, it's title is something along the lines of "Every Question Ever Asked in the History of Ever". ..Or something similar. So I open the book and take a look inside and I realize that it really is just a bunch of questions on each line of the pages but.. There's no answers to them which means that everyone is highlighting the questions. Oh and along with the book there's a worksheet for us to work on, but I don't really know what the hell is written on that, so. I'm looking at the book and wondering why no one is bothered that there aren't any answers. While I'm muttering about it to myself, Jeremy shows up. He's also reading the giant book of questions. For some reason, I look at him and ask him why he isn't more confused that there's no answers to the questions. And I guess Jeremy is a Zen Master in my dream or something, because every question I ask him he replies with another question. Eventually, that drives me nuts and I start bickering with him (bickering on my end, Zen on his). After a while, he just smiles, pats me on the head, says something like "Isn't that cute?" and then leaves.
Then out of no where we are no longer in study hall but the cafeteria and the books are replaced with food. Loriann and Cody are talking amongst themselves and the other guy is talking to me about something but I'm not really paying any attention to it since I'm still staring at the giant book of questions trying to figure out what the hell the point of it is. Loriann and Cody randomly decide to go shopping or.. I don't know, something. They tell me they're going and they leave. To my right is the giant crab person, who is apparently a girl because speaks (yes, speaks) in a very feminine tone and calls herself a girl from time to time. I guess she and I are closer friends or something. Out of the blue, the other guy says he's going to go get some juice or something and then leaves. So the crab keeps talking to me and I keep half paying attention to her. Suddenly, she just disappears in her tank. She like.. Lowers herself to the bottom of it and is gone which is apparently something normal since I'm not too bothered with it and I keep prodding at the big book of questions. Something floats up from the tank and I think it's the crab, so I turn and look and it's not. It's a huge bubble with a giant spider in it. Like.. The size of my hand (palm + fingers/thumb). Soon, it's joined with a fucking crapload of the bubbles with spiders in them, so much that the whole top half of the huge tank is covered with them. I'm scared of spiders, so I go into a panic attack of sorts. Freaking out, I get up and run to the door of the cafeteria to leave just when the crab is coming back up and tries to tell me she was going to eat the spiders. I'm still scared, so I still leave.
Outside of the cafeteria, the walls of the halls are covered with the same sized spiders but they're not in bubbles this time. And I mean -covered-. You cannot see the walls. Because I'm scared, I just fall down to the floor and start crying and freaking out and panicking when lo and behold, Jeremy shows up! He grabs my hand and tells me he'll bring me somewhere safe, so dragging me along the halls covered in spiders he eventually gets me into a stairwell and we run down to the lower level and go into the halls there. And - shock! - more spiders! Jeremy finds a door and opens it and we go inside. Shockingly, there are no spiders in the room. It's a small, weird little classroom and I sit down near the middle of the room. Jeremy is looking around and then tells me that panic attacks shouldn't go unchecked, so he says he's going to go find a nurse and he leaves to do so. I feel like I'm probably safe since there's no spiders in here, and I just sit tight. Behind me, though, a fucking gigantic spider that's probably as tall as I am lowers and just as I notice it's there I'm too late to move and it bites me. And then I die.
._. What. The. Hell.
I really need to go and get a dream book.
Apart from that, I guess I don't really have all that much to talk about.