Upset over class texts :(
I really don't want to do one of my classes for Honours.
The more I'm looking into possible texts to analyse, the more I'm being horrified by my options. Apart from Dickinson and Plath, they are all novels. This is ok on its own. However, the one title that I'm interested in is The Heart is a Lonely Hunter, and the main reason why I'm interested in that is because it doesn't have themes of rape, slavery, abuse, etc. However, what it also doesn't have is any relevance to any part of what I'm studying.
Secondly. I have to find another text to be able to present to the class as a tutor for that week. Given that I don't really want to look at any of the other texts, this is kind of difficult.
Given the strength of my upset over this, I'm considering going to the honours coordinator and English department head again and giving reasons of trauma just from reading the outlines of these texts to allow me to take something like Gothic Literature and its Children just for the adaptation element.
*siiiigh*
Edit:
I have made an appointment to speak to the lecturer who takes both the Honours class I want to leave and the Gothic Literature class that I want to move into. Tomorrow morning. Which means that I'll be sitting here thinking about what I want to say to her for the next 13 hours. Except not, because one hopes I'll be sleeping for some of that.
I've been talking with tentatores about what I want to say tomorrow, and it all sounds reasonable-ish. Not trying to offend teacher, not calling subject or text shit, merely feeling personally uncomfortable with texts, difficult to push past this as they are not connected with the rest of my Honours like the Gothic Literature class is. Already have some ideas I would like to write on, and am upset that the only reason I was not able to take this class is because it came out the semester after I finished my undergrad.
It's just so difficult that there are only three classes taught at Honours level. When I'm already taking one of them, and the other is similar enough to the one English class I got lower than an A for, it makes it difficult when an incompatibility such as this arises. I've spent half of the day feeling as though I've wasted two weeks of reading and thinking, and that I'll be two weeks behind in any class I do pick up at this point, although crazyjane13 was kind enough to say I wouldn't find it too difficult catching up on what has gone on in Gothic Lit so far.
I've really tried to make this work despite my own misgivings. I hate how, even so, this feels like giving up because something is 'too hard'.
The more I'm looking into possible texts to analyse, the more I'm being horrified by my options. Apart from Dickinson and Plath, they are all novels. This is ok on its own. However, the one title that I'm interested in is The Heart is a Lonely Hunter, and the main reason why I'm interested in that is because it doesn't have themes of rape, slavery, abuse, etc. However, what it also doesn't have is any relevance to any part of what I'm studying.
Secondly. I have to find another text to be able to present to the class as a tutor for that week. Given that I don't really want to look at any of the other texts, this is kind of difficult.
Given the strength of my upset over this, I'm considering going to the honours coordinator and English department head again and giving reasons of trauma just from reading the outlines of these texts to allow me to take something like Gothic Literature and its Children just for the adaptation element.
*siiiigh*
Edit:
I have made an appointment to speak to the lecturer who takes both the Honours class I want to leave and the Gothic Literature class that I want to move into. Tomorrow morning. Which means that I'll be sitting here thinking about what I want to say to her for the next 13 hours. Except not, because one hopes I'll be sleeping for some of that.
I've been talking with tentatores about what I want to say tomorrow, and it all sounds reasonable-ish. Not trying to offend teacher, not calling subject or text shit, merely feeling personally uncomfortable with texts, difficult to push past this as they are not connected with the rest of my Honours like the Gothic Literature class is. Already have some ideas I would like to write on, and am upset that the only reason I was not able to take this class is because it came out the semester after I finished my undergrad.
It's just so difficult that there are only three classes taught at Honours level. When I'm already taking one of them, and the other is similar enough to the one English class I got lower than an A for, it makes it difficult when an incompatibility such as this arises. I've spent half of the day feeling as though I've wasted two weeks of reading and thinking, and that I'll be two weeks behind in any class I do pick up at this point, although crazyjane13 was kind enough to say I wouldn't find it too difficult catching up on what has gone on in Gothic Lit so far.
I've really tried to make this work despite my own misgivings. I hate how, even so, this feels like giving up because something is 'too hard'.