fall break
So I am really the biggest nerd that there is but, that is ok. Tonight I am in Indianapolis Indiana visiting my grandparents and other extended family, sitting on a fold out coach watching grey’s anatomy without wireless connection. I am typing this into word to submit at a later time during this fall break and am sulking after another astros loss. Sitting here trying to take a quote from this silly show because whenever I watch one of these ever so popular shows about young doctors and their residency, I feel energized and a combination of myself being unproductive at the moment and the also feeling that I can do so much if I only put my mind to it. Pretty much the same way that I feel after watching rudy. So if you couldn’t already tell by now, this is going to be one of those monthly life-changing posts where I make a list of goals to accomplish in areas of my life where I am unsatisfied. But that will be for a later paragraph, first an update of the weekend so far.
Friday went to Beersheba Tennessee with haden and anne and dustin to a haden’s cabin. We sat around, made a fire, made hot chocolate, made breakfast, went to the jack daniels distillery in Lynchburg, to dustins house, to a really cool river/mountain house, and all around had a blast. Then today, Sunday, I drove up here to indy to the grandparents house. Tomorrow will be a day of golfing and playing with my little cousins. It should be a total blast. The weekend wasn’t really as awkward as I had initially hoped that it might be. We all got along without any real awkward pauses. The weekend was comprised of mainly driving from one weird hick town to the next, and along the way talking about life with the group. It was a good little experience and the type of rest that I needed.
So I think that I am going to start being a nice guy again. Not that I consciously made a decision not to be, I sorta felt like I was the rebel byx brother. Like there was no way for me to be the nice guy in the nice guy fraternity, so I tried to be the bad guy in the nice guy fraternity, and that role just does not fit me at all. Back home I was always the nice guy, but here at vandy I couldn’t really be the nicest guy in a group of great guys, so I rebelled against it all a little bit. I think that I am going to start trying to be myself and not act all weird and awkward at times.
I think that I am also going to start being a man, not just some pansy boy that shies away from the way he truly feels, but stand tall and not back down. I have acted in cowardice a lot lately, and not that I am going to act all grown up, but I have made some immature decisions this semester that I would like to learn and grow from. I am 20 years old and have so much potential to big a good guy, to hold all the characteristics and qualities that someone would look up to, but at this point in my life I am doing so very little to actually try and obtain those qualities. I am sitting around making inappropriate choices about time management and personal growth. I have even come to the point that I have realized that even though I am not being mean or a jerk to young ladies, I am not holding them in the regard that they ought to be held. In doing that I am being a jerk to them. I need to set a new standard of chivalry for myself, because I am certainly missing the mark when it comes to treating the young ladies that I know.
So that was that was that life changing paragraph deal. But I am serious about this one, the change might not be evident to many, because it might be more of a mental change than anything, but I have already started it in my mind. It will take a little time to get back to the place that it once was, but I definitely think that it is worth it. Also, tonight I told my grandparents that I was considering dropping out of college to become a male model. I think that my grandfather believed me, but my grandmother said that I might need to lose a little weight, so I guess its back on another diet for me.
Weight - 193 + 3 moonpies and 6 smores
Miles driven - 450 today
Comfortableness of fold out couch on a rating on 0 - 10 - 2
Knowledge that comfortableness was an actual word - none
Steroids taken - the ones that make you pale, ive been on those for years
Friday went to Beersheba Tennessee with haden and anne and dustin to a haden’s cabin. We sat around, made a fire, made hot chocolate, made breakfast, went to the jack daniels distillery in Lynchburg, to dustins house, to a really cool river/mountain house, and all around had a blast. Then today, Sunday, I drove up here to indy to the grandparents house. Tomorrow will be a day of golfing and playing with my little cousins. It should be a total blast. The weekend wasn’t really as awkward as I had initially hoped that it might be. We all got along without any real awkward pauses. The weekend was comprised of mainly driving from one weird hick town to the next, and along the way talking about life with the group. It was a good little experience and the type of rest that I needed.
So I think that I am going to start being a nice guy again. Not that I consciously made a decision not to be, I sorta felt like I was the rebel byx brother. Like there was no way for me to be the nice guy in the nice guy fraternity, so I tried to be the bad guy in the nice guy fraternity, and that role just does not fit me at all. Back home I was always the nice guy, but here at vandy I couldn’t really be the nicest guy in a group of great guys, so I rebelled against it all a little bit. I think that I am going to start trying to be myself and not act all weird and awkward at times.
I think that I am also going to start being a man, not just some pansy boy that shies away from the way he truly feels, but stand tall and not back down. I have acted in cowardice a lot lately, and not that I am going to act all grown up, but I have made some immature decisions this semester that I would like to learn and grow from. I am 20 years old and have so much potential to big a good guy, to hold all the characteristics and qualities that someone would look up to, but at this point in my life I am doing so very little to actually try and obtain those qualities. I am sitting around making inappropriate choices about time management and personal growth. I have even come to the point that I have realized that even though I am not being mean or a jerk to young ladies, I am not holding them in the regard that they ought to be held. In doing that I am being a jerk to them. I need to set a new standard of chivalry for myself, because I am certainly missing the mark when it comes to treating the young ladies that I know.
So that was that was that life changing paragraph deal. But I am serious about this one, the change might not be evident to many, because it might be more of a mental change than anything, but I have already started it in my mind. It will take a little time to get back to the place that it once was, but I definitely think that it is worth it. Also, tonight I told my grandparents that I was considering dropping out of college to become a male model. I think that my grandfather believed me, but my grandmother said that I might need to lose a little weight, so I guess its back on another diet for me.
Weight - 193 + 3 moonpies and 6 smores
Miles driven - 450 today
Comfortableness of fold out couch on a rating on 0 - 10 - 2
Knowledge that comfortableness was an actual word - none
Steroids taken - the ones that make you pale, ive been on those for years