Relationships
If I am such a fucking "catch", why is it no one seems to want to reel me in from the water?
Its like he only wants me when he is not with another girl and when it is convenient. Just like almost every other boyfriend/relationship of mine (excluding Alberto), I am cool and amazing to a point, and then they have to get rid of me as fast as they can without trying to "hurt" me in the process.
I am pretty...until...
I am sexy...until...
I am sweet and cute...until...
I am the nicest person they've ever met...until...
I am the love of their life...until...
I know I am better than this, that I deserve better...but another part of me wants to believe that it will all change. It probably won't.
He will love me and love me, until he meets another girl in a another corner of the world who is nothing like me. The girls are always so opposite of me it makes me wonder why he says he likes me in the first place.
I don't think he understands how much I care about him and how much I have wanted to be his since I was 15.
I know he is far away and we never made any promises to each other, but I still can't help feeling hurt and rejected every single time he tells me he is going to see another girl.
I know I need to get over him and move on.
But its hard. Really hard.
Fuck...I'm lonely.
I need to snap out of it.
"She loves her mama's lemonade,
Hates the sound that goodbyes make.
She prays one day she'll find someone to need her.
She swears that there's no difference,
Between the lies and compliments.
It's all the same if everybody leaves her.
And every magazine tells her she's not good enough,
The pictures that she's seen make her cry.
And she would change everything, everything just ask her.
Caught in the in-between, a beautiful disaster,
And she just needs someone to take her home.
She's giving boys what they want, tries to act so nonchalant,
Afraid they'll see that she's lost her direction.
She never stays the same for long,
Assuming that she'll get it wrong.
Perfect only in her imperfections."
Jon McLaughlin - Beautiful Disaster
Its like he only wants me when he is not with another girl and when it is convenient. Just like almost every other boyfriend/relationship of mine (excluding Alberto), I am cool and amazing to a point, and then they have to get rid of me as fast as they can without trying to "hurt" me in the process.
I am pretty...until...
I am sexy...until...
I am sweet and cute...until...
I am the nicest person they've ever met...until...
I am the love of their life...until...
I know I am better than this, that I deserve better...but another part of me wants to believe that it will all change. It probably won't.
He will love me and love me, until he meets another girl in a another corner of the world who is nothing like me. The girls are always so opposite of me it makes me wonder why he says he likes me in the first place.
I don't think he understands how much I care about him and how much I have wanted to be his since I was 15.
I know he is far away and we never made any promises to each other, but I still can't help feeling hurt and rejected every single time he tells me he is going to see another girl.
I know I need to get over him and move on.
But its hard. Really hard.
Fuck...I'm lonely.
I need to snap out of it.
"She loves her mama's lemonade,
Hates the sound that goodbyes make.
She prays one day she'll find someone to need her.
She swears that there's no difference,
Between the lies and compliments.
It's all the same if everybody leaves her.
And every magazine tells her she's not good enough,
The pictures that she's seen make her cry.
And she would change everything, everything just ask her.
Caught in the in-between, a beautiful disaster,
And she just needs someone to take her home.
She's giving boys what they want, tries to act so nonchalant,
Afraid they'll see that she's lost her direction.
She never stays the same for long,
Assuming that she'll get it wrong.
Perfect only in her imperfections."
Jon McLaughlin - Beautiful Disaster