no truth, more like persuasive ideas
Damn I just deleted everything I wrote. Oh well, this gives me the chance to shorten everything up and be concise
Okay, so I've been reading Savage Love archive posts all night. And that makes me feel pretty much like a freak. However as this may make me sound gay: mr savage is truly my idol - his stance on the 'otherside' of the world - the fucked up things makes it so true and simple. After reading his words continuously, I found him to be more than a gay, american, ammoral, political freak. He is not filled with american delusions - delusions of a better world, of liberation and human rights, rights in taboos and equality, the modern-age crap. it's good he doesn't act sissy and seems to have a rational mind. maybe he oversimplifies things a bit but I doubt its actually 'real' advice he's giving. Just entertainment.
Anyway, what I've came here to say is that his philosophy has converted me to being a realistic, heartless but rational bitch. I politely declined Yui's invitations to go out because I realise the core of it lies in the discrepency of me and hers characters. I merely have the decency to see through the fact that she doesn't know what she wants, and this is not what I want. life is at a degree abot self-indulgence and self-respect for this reason I plan to stop nicities for the sake of not suffering and burning myself in borign company. a relationship really consists of three things: I cannot relate to her, I cannot admire her for anything and she doesn't care a shit abotu me. I learned these specifically myself, no one told me. And it's not like she's any drunken fun like umi at times. be prepared for the extreme harsh comment: converstaion suck as I I find myself thinking all the time how full of shit she is when she opens her mouth. There are loads of reasons, good reasons that indicate my feeling of being used is legimate This is a case of 'dumping'. Still, I'm glad I'm not her and I'm happy that I don't have to feel like the bitch I am because she has played her way well - her status is equipped with her heritage, family, musical talent, music community, individualized friends, easiness to ease in.
I doubt that Yui feels much psychological crap played on her. but the thing is that I do, so I just have the decency to lay off. I'm not twisted like Junko, she freaks me out. I don't think I've seen what I want to know what I'm looking for, but I know it's not a slave I want nor to be part of some snobby 'i'm-so-classy' bitch clan. No, I cannot live up to their standards. I cannot understand their snide remarks or attitude.
Okay, so I've been reading Savage Love archive posts all night. And that makes me feel pretty much like a freak. However as this may make me sound gay: mr savage is truly my idol - his stance on the 'otherside' of the world - the fucked up things makes it so true and simple. After reading his words continuously, I found him to be more than a gay, american, ammoral, political freak. He is not filled with american delusions - delusions of a better world, of liberation and human rights, rights in taboos and equality, the modern-age crap. it's good he doesn't act sissy and seems to have a rational mind. maybe he oversimplifies things a bit but I doubt its actually 'real' advice he's giving. Just entertainment.
Anyway, what I've came here to say is that his philosophy has converted me to being a realistic, heartless but rational bitch. I politely declined Yui's invitations to go out because I realise the core of it lies in the discrepency of me and hers characters. I merely have the decency to see through the fact that she doesn't know what she wants, and this is not what I want. life is at a degree abot self-indulgence and self-respect for this reason I plan to stop nicities for the sake of not suffering and burning myself in borign company. a relationship really consists of three things: I cannot relate to her, I cannot admire her for anything and she doesn't care a shit abotu me. I learned these specifically myself, no one told me. And it's not like she's any drunken fun like umi at times. be prepared for the extreme harsh comment: converstaion suck as I I find myself thinking all the time how full of shit she is when she opens her mouth. There are loads of reasons, good reasons that indicate my feeling of being used is legimate This is a case of 'dumping'. Still, I'm glad I'm not her and I'm happy that I don't have to feel like the bitch I am because she has played her way well - her status is equipped with her heritage, family, musical talent, music community, individualized friends, easiness to ease in.
I doubt that Yui feels much psychological crap played on her. but the thing is that I do, so I just have the decency to lay off. I'm not twisted like Junko, she freaks me out. I don't think I've seen what I want to know what I'm looking for, but I know it's not a slave I want nor to be part of some snobby 'i'm-so-classy' bitch clan. No, I cannot live up to their standards. I cannot understand their snide remarks or attitude.