Cries of grief shame and sorrow
I hate everything about me right now. Who I am who I can be and what I was. I feel like I have an angry gross creature coming out of me that has sat in me for years. I hate how I am right now and I appologize for my personality. I get giggly and crazy when I am really upset inside. I guess its a mode I get into when i dont like who I am. Noises Off I am trying to make a positive experience but due to people who "just dont care" it is turning into a nightmare. I love everyone dearly but frankly I dont care either and I would appreciate it if everyone could act like they did care. We are all in drama we can do that. Right? Right!Besides all this i had fun in portales even with all that drama that went on there.(I am not talking about the plays)I connect myself to people and then lose them.... what am I doing wrong??????? I dont know and frankly I "just dont care".
I believe that I have never been this down in my life. I try to always be happy and peppy I cant show that side of me any more I cover things up to much and I dont think that I can do it any more. I am lost and have no idea how to find my way home.......suggestions......sure if you want to....
Enough of my bitching though none of you need all of my shit so i will stop. I hope everyone elses lives are going better.
I have never cuses so much in one day in all of my life
I believe that I have never been this down in my life. I try to always be happy and peppy I cant show that side of me any more I cover things up to much and I dont think that I can do it any more. I am lost and have no idea how to find my way home.......suggestions......sure if you want to....
Enough of my bitching though none of you need all of my shit so i will stop. I hope everyone elses lives are going better.
I have never cuses so much in one day in all of my life