Its Been a Lifetime
So it has been a really long time since I have posted on livejournal... but I think it is time for me to write some things down...
1. School: Its pretty crazy right now. I am taking a lot of hard classes and I've had to write a paper every night. I think I am going to have my recital next semester... it should be fun... but thats about it for school...
2. Work: Sucks. I am quitting in Nov. Then I will have been a cashier for a year. I cannot put up with the managers anymore. They suck and blame the other people that work there for their mistakes. Like it was my fault that I turned in my availability two - three times now and they still get at least one day wrong every week... so dumb!
3. Theatre: I am assistant stage manager and properties mistress for a show at the Gorilla Theatre called "Rag and Bone." Its an amazing show and I love all of the people working on it. I will be sad when it is over next weekend. I like hanging out with them, I feel more like myself with them.
4. Friends: I don't feel like I have any close friends to share things with anymore. Megan is busy with her show all the time. I am busy with work so I hardly see Lauren and Michael anymore. Bobby is here now, which is awesome, because I have someone to dress up and take pictures with. I lurve him. The friends from the theatre are kick ass and I hope that I will keep in touch with all of them after the show is over.
5. Boys: Oh my. What can I say? I am lonely. And it took Bobby yelling at me to realize it. I've been hiding it under my busy life. He says it is so easy to get a guy, and it may be for some people but not for me. I am so self-conscious of my weight. And I know that I can change all of that but it is so hard. I get so sad and lonely that I never want to get up and do anything when I get home from school or work. It always seems that I like a guy but he doesn't like me back. I curl up in my bed everynight. Alone. Sometimes I make myself so exhausted so that when I lay down in bed I fall asleep so fast that I won't feel anything. So I can dream of things I can't have.
Anyway... that is all for now...
1. School: Its pretty crazy right now. I am taking a lot of hard classes and I've had to write a paper every night. I think I am going to have my recital next semester... it should be fun... but thats about it for school...
2. Work: Sucks. I am quitting in Nov. Then I will have been a cashier for a year. I cannot put up with the managers anymore. They suck and blame the other people that work there for their mistakes. Like it was my fault that I turned in my availability two - three times now and they still get at least one day wrong every week... so dumb!
3. Theatre: I am assistant stage manager and properties mistress for a show at the Gorilla Theatre called "Rag and Bone." Its an amazing show and I love all of the people working on it. I will be sad when it is over next weekend. I like hanging out with them, I feel more like myself with them.
4. Friends: I don't feel like I have any close friends to share things with anymore. Megan is busy with her show all the time. I am busy with work so I hardly see Lauren and Michael anymore. Bobby is here now, which is awesome, because I have someone to dress up and take pictures with. I lurve him. The friends from the theatre are kick ass and I hope that I will keep in touch with all of them after the show is over.
5. Boys: Oh my. What can I say? I am lonely. And it took Bobby yelling at me to realize it. I've been hiding it under my busy life. He says it is so easy to get a guy, and it may be for some people but not for me. I am so self-conscious of my weight. And I know that I can change all of that but it is so hard. I get so sad and lonely that I never want to get up and do anything when I get home from school or work. It always seems that I like a guy but he doesn't like me back. I curl up in my bed everynight. Alone. Sometimes I make myself so exhausted so that when I lay down in bed I fall asleep so fast that I won't feel anything. So I can dream of things I can't have.
Anyway... that is all for now...