Het einde?
anyway, so today was busy
deca = my life for the next two weeks until states. there's so much to do with the campaign and the studying of food marketing. lovely.
and then there's other stuff to complicate matters on the social side. I dont know what to do. I hate not knowing what to do.
my stubborness will be my eventual downfall. i know it. I have way too much stubborn pride.
thats okay, though. because i've decided that i'll be a better person in my next life. until then, i'll deal with who i am, even though i wish i was less stubborn and arrogant. c'est la vie. or however the french people spell it.
wow, i've been using that way too much lately. everything i do is like, "whatever, i'll regreat that later." or, "whatever, it doest really matter anyway." i dont know, i think i'm starting to see life less as something magical and more of something that we live to die another day. i'm always thinking of the future and worrying about that eventual day that i do not live in the present. i'm trying to get into a good college so i can make a lot of money and become rich and famous so i can live a legacy when i die.
isn't that ironic? to me, my life is planning for after my death. i just realized that. haha, i'm always so concerned with being remembered that all i see is the end and what will happen after that. everything to me ends before it begins. like, when i started HS in 9th grade, i was like, "okay, 4 years from now, i'll be in college. let's work for then." i should have been like, "okay, i have 4 of the best years of my life ahead of me. The journey is more important than the destination."
that is the mentality to live by. John Lennon once said, "life is what happens when you're busy making other plans." someone else once said, "plan for tommorow, live for today."
and, that is my thought of the day. goodnight.
deca = my life for the next two weeks until states. there's so much to do with the campaign and the studying of food marketing. lovely.
and then there's other stuff to complicate matters on the social side. I dont know what to do. I hate not knowing what to do.
my stubborness will be my eventual downfall. i know it. I have way too much stubborn pride.
thats okay, though. because i've decided that i'll be a better person in my next life. until then, i'll deal with who i am, even though i wish i was less stubborn and arrogant. c'est la vie. or however the french people spell it.
wow, i've been using that way too much lately. everything i do is like, "whatever, i'll regreat that later." or, "whatever, it doest really matter anyway." i dont know, i think i'm starting to see life less as something magical and more of something that we live to die another day. i'm always thinking of the future and worrying about that eventual day that i do not live in the present. i'm trying to get into a good college so i can make a lot of money and become rich and famous so i can live a legacy when i die.
isn't that ironic? to me, my life is planning for after my death. i just realized that. haha, i'm always so concerned with being remembered that all i see is the end and what will happen after that. everything to me ends before it begins. like, when i started HS in 9th grade, i was like, "okay, 4 years from now, i'll be in college. let's work for then." i should have been like, "okay, i have 4 of the best years of my life ahead of me. The journey is more important than the destination."
that is the mentality to live by. John Lennon once said, "life is what happens when you're busy making other plans." someone else once said, "plan for tommorow, live for today."
and, that is my thought of the day. goodnight.